Session Start (hajime:hide): Tue Apr 14 20:31:13 2009
[20:46] hajime: *wolf uses the key she left for him the next day. enters the gate but doesn’t use it to open her door. knocks instead* *stands there waiting with this (Link: http://a248.e.akamai.net/f/80/71/6h/www.ftd.com/pics/products/B209_330x370.jpg)http://a24(Link: http://a248.e.akamai.net/f/80/71/6h/www.ftd.com/pics/products/B209_330x370.jpg)8.e.akamai.net/f/80/71/6h/www.ftd.com/pics/products/B20(Link: http://a248.e.akamai.net/f/80/71/6h/www.ftd.com/pics/products/B209_330x370.jpg)9_330x370.jpg under his arm and holding this (Link: http://s7d2.scene7.com/is/image/Teleflora/207835?&wid=208&fmt=jpeg&qlt=80,0&op_sharpen=0&resMode=bilin&op_usm=1.0,0.5,1.0,0&iccEmbed=0&layer=1&opac=0&layer=2&opac=55)http://s7d2.(Link: http://s7d2.scene7.com/is/image/Teleflora/207835?&wid=208&fmt=jpeg&qlt=80,0&op_sharpen=0&resMode=bilin&op_usm=1.0,0.5,1.0,0&iccEmbed=0&layer=1&opac=0&layer=2&opac=55)scene7.com/is/image/Teleflora/207835?&wid=208&fmt=j(Link: http://s7d2.scene7.com/is/image/Teleflora/207835?&wid=208&fmt=jpeg&qlt=80,0&op_sharpen=0&resMode=bilin&op_usm=1.0,0.5,1.0,0&iccEmbed=0&layer=1&opac=0&layer=2&opac=55)peg&qlt=80,0&op_sharpen=0&resMode=bilin&op_usm=(Link: http://s7d2.scene7.com/is/image/Teleflora/207835?&wid=208&fmt=jpeg&qlt=80,0&op_sharpen=0&resMode=bilin&op_usm=1.0,0.5,1.0,0&iccEmbed=0&layer=1&opac=0&layer=2&opac=55)1.0,0.5,1.0,0&iccEmbed=0&layer=1&opac=0&layer=2&op(Link: http://s7d2.scene7.com/is/image/Teleflora/207835?&wid=208&fmt=jpeg&qlt=80,0&op_sharpen=0&resMode=bilin&op_usm=1.0,0.5,1.0,0&iccEmbed=0&layer=1&opac=0&layer=2&opac=55)ac=55 with the same hand.*
[20:51] hide: *comes outside, holding some mail* Hello, Hajime…. *looks at her key in his hand* You could come on in… *smiles* That’s why I gave it to you. *takes his free hand* Can I carry something? I’m on the 4th floor.
[20:52] hajime: Ah no this is fine. I’ll follow you upstairs. *goes up with her* *eyes looks around, thinks the stairs are a little old and narrow*
[20:59] hide: *walks ahead of him, up to the top floor* It’s tiny. But it has a wonderful secret. *smiles back over her shoulder at him* *takes her key from her skirt pocket and undoes the door, letting him go ahead and closes and locks the door back after them* This is the main floor… that’s the living area (Link: http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y96/SafetyGirl/living_02.jpg)(Link: http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y96/SafetyGirl/living_02.jpg)http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y96/SafetyGirl/living_02.jpg , the washroom is right behind you amd there’s the kitchen… (Link: http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y96/SafetyGirl/living_04.jpg)http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y96/SafetyGirl/living_04.jpg *touches the bannister* Up there is the my bedroom. *turns to look at him* So what is that that you carried all the way up here? (Link: http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y96/SafetyGirl/living_04.jpg)
[21:01] hajime: *looks around* It’s rather “cozy”… *thinks: how can she live in this tiny space?* Your parents know about this? *sets the box of sweets on the table and the flower arrangement beside it*
[21:07] hide: *nods* It is… but it was a good price. And, as I said earlier, there’s a secret up there. *looks at the flowers, smiles.* Hajime, these are beautiful. Thank you. And treats! *she grins at him* These stairs assure me that I can eat all such things and not worry about losing my shape. *laughs softly, leading him over to the “sofa” by the window, moving the little table aside so she can sit next to him* Would you like some coffee? Share the treats with me? *kisses his cheek, and leans her head against his shoulder* Ah, well, they admire that I’m being thrifty. They don’t know the neighborhoods so well, and the pictures I’ve sent were of the other part of this place.
[21:13] hajime: A secret huh? I do hope it’s worth it. *nods at her comment about the flowers* There’s a flower shop I pass by everyday. Usually I’ve complained about the smell, but I guess it’s not that bad now that I’ve bought something from there…. *takes one of her hand and slips his fingers through hers* No Hide. I didn’t come for coffee. *frowns at what she said about the parents* I guess… It would be better that way. *thinks: in this place… everyone we know is still alive. her parents, my brother…*
[21:36] hajime: Ah is this a bad time Hide? *stands up* I’m sorry. I just wanted to drop these off* *puts her key on the table as well* Good night. (ooc: wolf is exiting; i assume internet is not available)
[21:37] hide: OOC: No, I’m here
Session Start (hajime:hide): Tue Apr 14 21:37:33 2009
[21:37] hide: Are you showing me offline?
[21:37] hajime: no.
[21:40] hide: [22:37] hide: [22:20] hide: *tightens her fingers around his, lifts it up, kisses his hand* Oh, but it is… ready for more stairs? *laughs, pulling him up, embracing him tight with her other arm* I know it wasn’t for coffee. *lets go, but keeps his hand in hers, and leads him up the stairs to the bedroom, and through the door along the back wall* (Link: http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y96/hide/bed_01.jpg)http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y96/hide/bed_01.jpg When I found this place, it needed a lot of work out here, but I wanted to make some place special… *opens the door to reveal a hidden rooftop garden* (Link: http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y96/hide/2006-05-23-garden1.jpg)http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y96/hide/2006-05-23-garden1.jpg (Link: http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y96/hide/2006-05-23-garden2.jpg)http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y96/hide/2006-05-23-garden2.jpg So tell me… *puts her arms around him* Is it worth it?
[21:40] hide: (OOC: No idea what is wrong with IM)
[21:45] hajime: *wolf looks around* It’s very nice… I hope you took a picture of this and sent it to your father. *is quiet, then clears his throat* Thanks for showing it to me. *looks at his watch* Ah I’m sorry… I have a prior engagement. I didn’t intend to stay long. *kisses her cheek* I’ll see you. I guess.
[21:50] hide: *holds onto his hand* Already? Hajime… *looks up at him* *whispers* Please… don’t leave the keys. Don’t give back the keys. My place may be small… *buries her face in his chest* This world is strange. But I try to make a garden wherever I can… a garden where we can be together when we come here, sometimes, of all of the places we go. Please… I want to be back in Tokyo, on our sofa… Hajime…
[21:58] hajime: Strange? *looks down at her* I liked this place. We couldn’t have a good past in the -past-… Our present was Tokyo with Makoto which is where our life truly is… But this place of steel and glass, it was a life that I dreamt for us… One that is free of complexities. There is no deep regrets here or sadness. After all we’ve not made our mistakes yet. There are people to turn to aside from ourselves… It is a place where people we know still walked amongst us… The only exception to that was Okita… I chose him to be dead. As for my wife Tokio, it is like the story you never finished and so I finished it. *looks back at her* We don’t have to come here again. We can go back. I am fine with it.
[22:11] hide: *quiet* I don’t want us to live in one box… I want to live with you in so many times and places. I like this world, for its own charms. Those we knew are still here… And then something happens to the communication! *sits down on one of the planters, stares at her hands, which are still rough at spots* you leave me my key and tell me you’re going. I needed to make up with you tonight, to hold you….! I wanted us to finish a perfect night together. I want… to come back to this world. *looks up at him* I want a good life with you here, as I do anywhere we can be together. *looks out across the city skyline* And if you are free from Tokio, I want to marry you here, as well as in our Tokyo.
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[22:21] hajime: What’s the difference? Just because I don’t mention it in Tokyo, doesn’t mean I don’t -think- it. This is why I should never open my mouth to you about the -silly- things in my head. *searches his pockets for his cigarette, lights one up* *takes short but strong puffs* Really Hide… If you don’t understand what happened, why I thought that… why I ruined our evening… -think- about it! Stop thinking for once that I don’t believe you… And actually -assume- that I do. Do you think it’s even normal to dream of a world like this where a close friend is not allowed to live like the rest? *takes a puff and lowers his voice*
[22:21] hajime: Do you actually think I like that? You say, a mere ghost is not a real threat compared to a wife. Are you sure? What if he came back like he always does? You did love him right?! And he wasn’t a bad man unlike my wife who was in fact neglectful. *shakes his head* I’ll be wherever you want me to be. But don’t expect me not to think the -silly- things.
[22:38] hide: If I met Souji again I would be happy for him, happy that he was alive. I would wish him happiness. But I’m with the man I love now. *takes his hand* Yes, Souji was a good young man. I never loved him like I love you, and it’s hard to compare – I didn’t know just how -much- I could love until you took my heart *squeezes his hand* It’s not silly…. it’s not silly when something bothers you. As I said, I’d like to go back and be -your- first everything too. *smiles slightly* Think the silly things. It’s like I always compare myself to that neglectful wife.
[22:38] hide: A woman has her anxieties, after all – she is, I’m told, beautiful and tall and I am neither. And isn’t that silly? *sighs* And it’s normal… after all, when I write and create worlds, I don’t know what to do with Tokio, even knowing how she is. Yet I still compare myself. *shakes head*
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[22:47] hajime: *sits down on one of the edges* That’s not what bothers me. Him coming back isn’t… Only the fact that if he, in fact lived, you wouldn’t be here. We probably wouldn’t even bother talking. Your Souji is a perfect young man, your sisters wasn’t so until he was “set free” in the end. *narrows eyes and blows a smoke at the corner of his lips* But I’m not being fair because if Tokio was not a neglectful woman… I would not look to any other as well.
[22:47] hajime: So it is all a silly thing. I don’t like thinking those -silly- things. *looks at her* And it’s obvious how much I upset you the other night at the mere mention of him. *shrugs* Yes by the usual standards,Tokio is beautiful. *watches her closely then looks back at the floor* But at least you will always have the opportunity to know who I choose. It is not a great unknown.
[23:02] hide: You assume that Souji and I would have stayed together. Understanding myself and him better now… I don’t know if it would have gone beyond first love. Young people, when they come together, have to be able to grow and change… and the world changed so much. He would have gone to battle, had he not been ill, and died alongside Hijikata-san or Kondou-san as he always wished. But you know, I don’t ask myself the what if. I didn’t even after he left me, or after I heard he died. I could have carried a torch forever. Had I always done that… I never would have been able to see you, to fall in love with you. So I made my real choice, a long time ago, before I even knew you would be there to love me.
[23:02] hide: *looks over at him* I was upset… *turns him so she can look into his eyes* because you were thinking of him when all I was thinking of was you. I get upset when you bring him up because I feel that I never will be able to convince you that you are my choice.
[23:09] hajime: *watches her speak* *sighs* It doesn’t matter anywhere I go… I can’t seem to put him behind me. It’s not that I don’t believe you. In fact I told you I -do-. This is not something that just concerns who your choice is. It is beyond that. But… *flicks the cigarette* I don’t want to keep talking about this anymore. Honestly, I am tired of talking. To answer your question, I returned your key because I was angry… I’m no longer however.
[23:14] hide: *puts her arms around him as he flicks away the cigarette, holds him quietly for a long moment* *slides her key in his shirt pocket* Then keep it, please. I would like to keep yours. *kisses his cheek, then tilts his head so that he is looking at her* *smiles a little, touching his face, before slowly, softly, kissing him*
[23:19] hajime: I was thinking of going to Kondou-san before stopping by here. *watches her put the key in his pocket* I didn’t know exactly what I needed to do… How to stop being an -idiot-. But there was no time. *allows her to turn his head* Yes I gave it to you remember? *kisses her back, cups her cheek on the palm of his hand and closes his eyes. feels a bit more calmer now* *finally the kiss ends and he takes a breath*
[23:24] hide: You should see him, he loves it when you stop by. *smiles* He keeps calling me asking me to babysit. Which I will. *laughs softly* But not tonight, he lives an hour way out, unless he’s at the bar still. *brushes back his hair* You can stay here, I don’t have anything that will fit you for sleeping but I do make an -excellent- breakfast. *grins softly*
[23:27] hajime: Let me warn you now… He’s a rather stingy old man. *tilts his head at her invitation* I only saw one bed… Are you sure you’re the only one here? Your brother Yuunosuke doesn’t have a nasty habit of dropping by does he? *grins a little*
[23:33] hide: Well watching Tamako-chan is hardly work – after all I get to go swimming. And Otsune usually leaves us a wonderful meal. *laughs* It’s the three buses I have to take to get there! I won’t tell him you call him “old”, he’s getting sensitive, you know! *tilts her head back at him* Just the one bed, and it’s just me here. And no, Yuunosuke is back home, with his nose in a book unless he’s chasing after this lady cop he met…. *stands and takes his hand* (OOC: you may close)
[23:35] hajime: *tilts his head* You should be the one cooking, not Otsune… *stands up, but goes behind her and wraps his arms around her waist* I’m glad to hear about Yuunosuke…. that he’s doing fine I mean. *thinks: well -that- and that he’s not -here-* (OOC: close)