[00:31] *** You have been disconnected. Wed Mar 02 00:31:49 2005.
[22:23] hajime: (OOC: Start? Sometime the middle of June, a few days after the precinct) I open the door and let myself in. It is dark already… “Hide…”
[22:25] hide: (OOC: Sure) I hear Hajime, and come out of the kitchen. “Good evening, Hajime…” I smile at seeing him.
[22:25] hajime: I enter the room and give her a peck on the cheek. “How are you feeling?”
[22:27] hide: “Ah, well…” I kiss his cheek. “I’m very -careful- in this heat…. I’m even getting up -early- to see to the garden instead of waiting for afternoon. Would you like some coffee? Did you have dinner?”
[22:29] hajime: “No coffee. It always made me feel excitable. And I’m not hungry….” I look at her and give her a soft smile “I wouldn’t mind some melons though.” I tell her.
[22:31] SafetyGirl0: “Ah, okay…” I head back to the kitchen. “I did just get a fresh one when I went out shopping today.” I set the melon out on the counter and go for the knife.
[22:32] hajime: I go ahead and sit at the sofa. Perfect I think aside from the cushions elsewhere. “Glad to see you went out.”
[22:33] hide: I come back out with the melon, all cut up, and set the plate down on the table by the sofa. “I go out… sometimes to walk, to try to explore a little, and then of course I have errands to see to.” I sit down next to him.
[22:34] hajime: “Good. You’re proving that you were not the girl who was waited on back in kyoto.” I take a piece of the melon and pop it into my mouth contemplatively.
[22:36] hide: I laugh softly… “I was waited on… but I like to see to things… taking care of this small house, of you, and getting ready for our child.” I smile over at him before taking some melon for myself.
[22:38] hajime: “Hmmm… Yes do that.” I chew on the melon. I wonder why she… “Lately… Don’t take this wrong…” I look at her. “but lately, you seem to remind me of our child… I am very much aware Hide.”
[22:42] hide: “Oh… do I? I don’t do it to -remind- you…” I look down, confused. Have I? “If I speak of it… it is not for that. I am… excited, I suppose… and I -know- you are aware… I didn’t say things to mean -that-…” I glance over at him. “Please… don’t think that I would say these things for a -purpose-… other than to tell you about my day, or things that have been going on.”
[22:44] hajime: “Good… Because…” I blink a few times as I watch her lap. “It’s not like I will forget. And it worried me, since I thought you said it because you worried I will forget.”
[22:47] hide: I turn to him, and lightly touch his cheek. “I -know- you won’t forget.” I meet his eyes… again, the -truths- that I rediscovered on the beach. “As I know you wouldn’t forget me.” I smile, my hand going from his cheek to rest atop his hand, as I reach for another peice of melon with my other hand.
[22:49] hajime: “Alright.” I take out a pack of cigarettes and start to smoke. “The onna hates these…” I say out of the blue. I look back immediately at her and shake my head. “Suma.. I didn’t mean to say that.”
[22:52] hide: Ah… “No, no, it’s -fine- to say that… if you need to talk, I will listen.” I smile over at him. “We used to talk of such things, a long time ago… and I won’t react as badly when talking about her as I have. But only if you wish to.” I watch him smoke. Tokio… she has been much on my mind lately.
[22:55] hajime: “There’s nothing to say about her…” I tell her. I wait and take a long drag. “She is too weak… and” I look back at her. “Do you remember when I told you.. to need someone is not weakness?”
[22:58] hide: I smile softly, “yes… I remember that. And it’s true.” That took me a while to fully -realize-. “In needing someone… sometimes that is what makes ones strengths come out, I think…”
[23:00] hajime: “Yes… A contrast isn’t it?” I sigh and take a longer drag this time… I wonder how long I can hold my breath? “I remember the song…” I start she knows what I’m talking about. That secret song, she did not tell me about till much later.
[23:03] hide: “Ah… yes… -that- one.” At the time I wanted to stab my writer for posting it. “That was…” I shake my head. “I should have talked about those things that bothered me earlier.”
[23:04] hajime: “So talk to me now…” There is something on her mind.. Of course there is… If there wasn’t then, that wouldn’t be natural i think..
[23:10] hide: “I do read about that other world of yours, you know…” I take his hand. “I used to be -jealous- in a very irrational way. I thought it was of her, personally… a woman I don’t even know. But I think it’s just because she is there… and I’m stuck here.” I sigh a little. “Does that make sense?”
[23:14] hajime: I take her hand and pull her close. “I can always come here. I try you know…” I look at the cigarette I placed on the ashtray. “and I’m sorry for the times that I can’t. There are things there that I must keep up with and Kizu and I argue about how to approach things.”
[23:16] hide: “I know you try… and I am -glad- of every moment we have together… even when they’re difficult.” I snuggle close to him. “If you can’t… then you do send me songs… do you know how much I love those?” I smile up at him.
[23:17] hajime: “Thank kami… I was starting to think I was just plain insane for sending them.” I squeeze her hand a bit.
[23:19] hide: I rest my head against his arm. “No… I only wish my writer had more for me to offer you… it is unfortunate that her taste in music is quite bad…” I laugh. “But… do you know how that makes me smile to find that you left one for me? See, I -know- you think of me, even when you’re not here.”
[23:22] hajime: “Hmmm… Funny…” I become quiet a bit. I did that once with Tokio. “She didn’t even…” I shake my head and let Hide go to reach for my cigarette.
[23:24] hide: He’s speaking in fragments. “She didn’t even what?” I ask, quietly, as I doubt that the ‘she’ he refers to is my writer.
[23:27] hajime: “Ah… I left her a letter once and some money. She didn’t tell me about her day…” I grit my teeth. I can’t seem to stop talking about Tokio today, when clearly I am here with Hide. “She was too pre-occupied with her guilty conscience I think. And it’s not like I will just forgive her… So I ignored her sentiments instead.”
[23:32] hide: “Ah…” I say, and I hold his hand tightly. I don’t quite know what to say; if I would only hurt things. “Maybe she needs time… to develop some confidence in herself, so she’s not so timid, before she will tell you things. Not all women are as chatty as others…” I smile a little, thinking of the ninja girl who is -rarely- quiet.
[23:34] hajime: “So you want me to be… Patient?” Why does she say these things… I was hoping that she’d tell me… “I guess I did quite badly then.”
[23:39] hide: “No… you did fine, I think… you have these things that you must…. deal with. And it goes both ways… it’s not just about -you- doing something. Don’t let anyone convince you or your writer otherwise… she’s just as much a part of it. It’s -not- all your fault.” I wish … I could just tell him to stay here and not worry about that other world and her… but I don’t think that’s how it will work.
[23:44] hajime: I shrug just slightly. “Perhaps… fujita needs to just be okay there. That is what I want, then I can be at peace. I do not love her at all… and i hate to lie when it’s not -work-.” I sigh. “Sometimes I do not know who that person is over there. He gives in but I don’t want to give in so it turns out into this awkward thing between us.” I shrug again but look towards her a bit pleading.. “tomorrow… can you pretend? meet me.. at a coffee shop… instead of -her-.”
[23:47] hide: “You mean -there-?” I ask, surprised. “Instead of…. my sister?”
[23:47] hajime: “Yes.”
[23:50] hide: “We tried a test before…” I sigh. I’m not certain how this will turn out. My sister is not in great shape right now, after we talked about what -might- have happened with the Souji she knows.
[23:53] hajime: “Ah that… Yes.. It didn’t turn out quite well.” I take a look out the window. I shake my head at my lapse of thinking. her sister of course… “suma suma.”
[23:57] hide: “I -want- to be there…” I say, quietly. “But… all I can be is -here-. I can’t take her place, my writer and I promised her -her- story…. no matter how hurt she’s going to get.”
[00:00] hajime: “As I’ve said I’m sorry. I shouldn’t ask unreasonable things.” I put out the cigarette and re lit a new one. I chuckle just a bit and grit my teeth at the same time. “You’re condition might show anyway. Here eat some more of this, fresh fruits are good for you.” I hand her the melon.
[00:02] hide: “It’s not -unreasonable-” more impossible, “… and you only asked to see me more, ne?” I smile at him. “Ah, yes… it would be bad for my sister is someone were to spot me like I am now… that pesky doctor or her roommate might figure out something…” I laugh softly, taking some melon.
[00:09] hajime: “Yes.” I reply and take another drag. Perhaps Souji is right there are… Oh this is so stupid. “Well.. hopefully it will be short.”
[00:11] hide: “Yes… ” I answer, nodding. “You just need information, right?”
[00:13] hajime: “Yes… I just need people for that.” The smoke escapes my lips slowly. I admire the white clouds… How they play…
[00:16] hide: I watch him smoke. I move closer to him. “Some people, I suppose, and I’m glad she can help you… if it must be her there and not me… at least she can help.”
[00:18] hajime: “It’s not like she’ll have a choice. I’ll do it one way or another.” The words come out in a low drawl. “It is fortunate though that she’ll choose to -cooperate-. It will make life easier for both of us.” Yes instead of me hauling her off somewhere and threatening her or something. That would be easy to do… Yes so easy. To treat people like they were in my interrogation room. I smirk slightly, hijikata would be proud i think.
[00:20] hide: “She will because you ask it of her. She helps her old friends.” I glance over at him.
[00:21] hajime: I choose not to answer that. There is no need to. “Well I shall be going. Lock your doors.”
[00:22] hide: “Hajime…. wait.” I say, reaching for him.
[00:23] hajime: “Why?” Ah the perrenial question. How many times have I asked this the past few months? I turn and look at her a bit dispassionately.
[00:28] hide: Why indeed? I hate his eyes like this… “Why anything?” I say, softly, moving closer, “It’s the old discussion… why we are where we are. But I value what time we have together, what we have together. I -wish- for so much more… please, when you’re not here… remember that I -do- love you.” I take his hand. “As I know, even when I don’t see you for long stretches of time… that you’ve not forgotten about me and that you will return.” I look up at him. “Because I will be here, even if you hadn’t asked me to wait.”
[00:31] hajime: “Yes I know…” I shrug. “Who knows maybe Hiko will make true on his word and take tokio. Then I shall be free ne?”
[00:33] hide: “If that day comes… if you are free… but I am -yours- anyway.” I stand on the tips of my toes to brush my lips against his. “Always,” I whisper.
[00:37] hajime: “Yes fine. I shall need to get Ikumatsu and Tokio to meet, that way the ball can get rolling. The Choshu woman can talk her talk and the Hiten master will comfort her.” I say in disdain. “And as for us… Just don’t worry about it. It will not be good for the child.”
[00:40] hide: “I will worry… as I will always fuss…” I say. “Sometime soon… let’s have a nice afternoon together again. Go out somewhere?” Little things… our future will be built slowly. “Please, take care over there…” I squeeze his hand tightly.
[00:42] hajime: “Yes somewhere.” I let go of her hand. Taking my pack, I place it into my pocket. Amazing how a cigarette can keep a man sane, long -enough-. “Take care of yourself as well.” I bid her goodbye and close the door behind me. (OOC: exit wolf)
[00:44] hide: I watch him leave… wondering if the things I say only serve to make things worse. No… he told me once that my words -do- reach him, in time… I must believe this. (OOC: end scene)