Early July – Another lunch
A few days after Hajime and I saw each other again I thought that I would try again to take him lunch at work. I wanted to while I could… once I start showing, I’m not sure if it would be the best idea. And I like to surprise him, and I don’t get so many opportunities to do that.
I get everything together, raiding the writer’s collection for certain items, and head off. It’s been raining again, but today has so far been overcast and grey, and muggy.
I’m shown up to his office and knock on the door. Hopefully nobody has been painting again.
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hajimenokizu
2005-02-27 09:31 pm UTC (link) Select
Tch! All these cases and none of them solved or even close to being to. One of these days I’m definitely quitting the force and just go around in the shadows to get rid of these corrupt politicians, mass murderers and oh yes, lying rurounis!
Tossing the papers to the side, I placed my feet atop of my desk. It’s -my- desk and this is -my- office and -I- can do anything I want in here.
There’s so many things to think about! Damn it! Time to smoke!
Reaching for a new pack under the drawer, I open it in a hurry tossing the paper wrapper to the side. I look over to my left and see the ashtray is already over flowing with ashes. Now what the hell did Souji say about smoking? Bah I can’t remember! Him and his big mouth! Oh yes her and her big mouth too! They could all run away together for all I care. I hope they get run over by a ten foot carriage, maybe then I’d get some peace.
A knock comes to the door. I roll my eyes, wondering if I should answer it or not. Again… There it is again.
“If you -truly- have business with me, come in!” I growl. If it’s some weak spined junior officer, then he can just go to hell.
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hime__sama
2005-02-27 09:37 pm UTC (link) Select
If you -truly- have business with me, come in!
Oh, he’s having one of those days… I open the door, coming in and closing it behind me. “No, I’m afraid I’m not here on business…” I smile. He’s sitting at his desk, feet up and smoking. “Just lunch!” I hold up the bundle of wrapped bento boxes. “Hungry yet?”
I glance over at the ashtray. He’s been smoking a lot…
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hajimenokizu
2005-02-27 09:42 pm UTC (link) Select
Oh it’s -her-. Lunch? I did not have lunch… Perhaps this is good timing.
“Close the door and lock it.” I say not really caring how -that- sounded.
I make no motion to stand up, but I do take my feet off. She’s smiling…
“Yes I am hungry. Pull up a chair and sit.”
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hime__sama
2005-02-27 09:49 pm UTC (link) Select
I go back to lock the door, and move a chair over next to him. “Wonderful, I had good timing then.”
I look again at the discarded cigarettes. “Looks as if you’re having a day…” I reach over and touch his hand, briefly. I set the bundle up on the desk, holding out one. “Even coffee… it’s still warm. I stole this from the writer…” I smile more thinking of her reaction of another one of her items being used.
“And of course the usual… zaru soba is good for these summer days, and I have inari…” I set out the boxes. “Maybe I should try for more variety, ne?”
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hajimenokizu
2005-02-27 09:53 pm UTC (link) Select
Deciding not to address her -first- comment, I decided to stare at the -pink- jar. Pink just a few more shades off magenta. Stupid rurouni…
“Your writer has weird taste. Did I ever tell you that?”
I go ahead and take the jar and pour myself some coffee. “Do you want any?”
Soba and inari… Oh yes I -did- ask her that a long time ago.
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hime__sama
2005-02-27 09:58 pm UTC (link) Select
I sigh, sitting down. “Yes, yes she does.” He seems to be in a different kind of bad mood… I think before our time apart I might have been a little intimidated by this.
“Coffee? Oh, no, thank you, I don’t have -quite- the taste for it, you know… even with a lot of sugar and cream… but I did stop by the market and get myself some nice, cool, milk. No tea…” Tea is for mornings only. And sometimes dinner. Oh, I am drinking less. Truly.
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hajimenokizu
2005-02-27 10:02 pm UTC (link) Select
“Ah good to see you do listen once in a while.” I tell her. “Milk will be good for the child.. And I don’t know how -many- times I’ve told you that.”
I glance at her while I took a sip of the coffee, then follow it up by taking a hit on my cigarette. She sighed earlier, I wonder what it is -now-.
“What’s with you?” I ask eyeing her.
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hime__sama
2005-02-27 10:07 pm UTC (link) Select
“Yes, I do listen to you…” I tease, grinning at him, and wink. “When I want to… but yes, milk is good, if I can be assured that it is fresh. It’s something to be careful with, you know.”
I’m a little surprised, “with me?” I think for a moment. “Nothing… I thought it would be nice to surprise you at work with lunch…” I look over at him, “and I did want to see you.”
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hajimenokizu
2005-02-27 10:11 pm UTC (link) Select
“Tch. You don’t -have- to listen to -me-. And yes I -do- know you do when you -want- to. You’ve said it yourself the other night.” I scowl just a fraction and take another sip at the coffee.
“Thank you for lunch.” I breathe out the words slowly.
“And you wanted to see me why?” Quirking up my eyebrow I wait for an answer.
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hime__sama
2005-02-27 10:19 pm UTC (link) Select
Attempts at being light are failing. At least I got him fed.
“Why I wanted to see you?” I frown a little, shrugging. “I like to see you, hear your voice. Even when you’re in a mood like this… I still want to.” I shake my head. “But I had no other agenda than wanting to spend even a short time with you and bring you lunch.”
I bring out the last box, the small cat-shaped one. “I brought melon, too.” I hope pears will be out soon, as I cannot seem to find where Hajime found those ones he brought me.
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hajimenokizu
2005-02-27 10:24 pm UTC (link) Select
“I’m not in a mood.” I scowl back at her. “I’m -usually- like this.”
It’s true I spend most of my days and nights working and I am like this.
“If you wanted to spend time with me…” I stand up ignoring the the cat shaped box. “We’ll eat the melon -later-.”
Taking her a bit too roughly, I head over to the leather sofa on the other end of my office. I place her down there and pin both her wrist above her and leered down. “SO! Do you still want to spend time -now-?”
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hime__sama
2005-02-27 10:34 pm UTC (link) Select
“Usually? I should read more to see that, then. I suppose that I have overestimated my abilities to bring you out of these moods.” I start to gather the remains of lunch back.
I’m surprised when he grabs me, roughly. He’s not treated me like this since I told him about the baby.
I blink, trying to calm down… “You’re trying to scare me… push me away?” I tug, trying to free my hands. “Stop it, Hajime.”
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hajimenokizu
2005-02-27 10:44 pm UTC (link) Select
My eyes turns into slits as I look down on her. She is a woman, a small one and even if she squirmed there is no chance she can get away from me even.
“No one’s trying to push you away or -scare- you.” I move so that our faces are just inches apart. “You can shout and this will stop, otherwise I’m getting what I want.”
I kiss her roughly on the lips, letting one of her hand go so I can touch her bare neck with my left hand. My mouth on hers do not let go as I try to find her tongue. My right hand, keeping her other hand in place and half of my body pressing against her. My knee planted itself right between her legs. Panting slightly I finally let go of her lips.
“Now would be a good time to shout and get yourself out of here.”
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hime__sama
2005-02-27 10:56 pm UTC (link) Select
He moves so quickly and kisses me – his touch is rough but he -is- touching me, not just going directly to… “Oh, now you want me?” I laugh a little. “After you told me the other night you weren’t going to touch me for months that you would be patient?”
I look directly in his eyes, one hand on his shoulder, “I didn’t agree with that… I still want you… but not like this.” I pull again, trying to free my other arm. “If you want me, let go of my other hand… and I will not leave.”
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hajimenokizu
2005-02-27 11:04 pm UTC (link) Select
I think she is mocking me. She is laughing. How can someone laugh at a time like this? Ah yes because I showed her I -wanted- her. She thinks she has this -hold- over me. Feeling my eyes burn I let go of her hand as she tries to pull it free.
Immediately getting up I head for the stupid cat box that had the melon. If I can’t have anything as of the moment, I can have this stupid orange watery fruit.
She is bargaining with me. No. I’ve had enough of that everywhere else. She either will or she won’t. Perhaps it’s better if we do not.
“The melon tastes quite well, you should take a bite.” I tell her and head over to the window beside my seat to smoke.
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hime__sama
2005-02-27 11:16 pm UTC (link) Select
He lets me go and starts talking about the melons. Melon? What the…?
What is he pulling? No… what is in his head? What are they doing to him in that other place?
I go over to him by the window. In a low voice, I say, “don’t start something that you don’t plan to finish…” I pull him down by his collar, bringing my lips to his with some force, kissing him in a more demanding way than I usually do for a long moment, my tongue finding its way into his mouth. I break away. My face is deadly serious, no laughter, no smile. “you don’t have to -make- me want you. As always it is something given freely.” Still a little breathless from this kiss, I keep my eyes on him.
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hajimenokizu
2005-02-27 11:28 pm UTC (link) Select
As I stood there, she pops out of nowhere. Perhpas I wasn’t paying attention. She is talking to me, something about finishing. Ah yes I do tend to start things and lately I have lacked the capacity to finish them. How insightful of her.
The next thing I know is her lips are on mine. She is standing on her toes I think because I know I made no effort to move….
The window…
She’s forgotten we’re by the window. Responding to her, I hold her waist steady with both my hands before she finally decided to let go.
Something given freely…
I know this. I’ve always known this but sometimes I just want to run elsewhere and sometimes I just want to get what I want without any questions. She’s looking at me as if I’m a ghost of sorts.
“Don’t look at me.” I grit my teeth.
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hime__sama
2005-02-27 11:41 pm UTC (link) Select
He does kiss me back…
“Don’t look at you?” My face softens from its seriousness. How I wish… I knew what to say, what to do.
The light streaming in reminds me that these windows are open and anyone could see us. My eyes go to settle on the buttons of his jacket, and then to his chin. His hands are on my waist, and I move to put my arms around him, to hold him. “Come, Hajime… back to the sofa…” I kiss his neck, softly. It won’t solve anything… but it is when we are intimate that things can be expressed that can’t be said otherwise.
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hajimenokizu
2005-02-27 11:53 pm UTC (link) Select
Her face changes it’s expression, I can only guess at times like these. She wraps herself around me and I can feel her lips on my neck. My hands go behind her back to trace the groove behind her kimono. I take her hands and push her away slowly and shake my head.
“Not here. That was wrong of me.” I tell her. “I still have work to do…”
I take the box from my desk and put them all in the bag she had prepared earlier. Yes it is better this way, I did say I was not going to touch her. Perhaps it is just that I am a little out of place right now. Things will be fine soon, I assure myself. It will get fine. Handing her the bag, I lead her to the door.
“Thanks for coming.” I say and smile slightly. “It was nice of you to come. Take care of yourself.”
With that I open the door to show her out.
(OOC: End scene for the wolf)
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hime__sama
2005-02-28 01:13 am UTC (link) Select
He smiles a little as I leave, but his words sound… off, and I wonder… what have we passed through? I smile back as I leave out of the door. I don’t ask him when he’ll see me again, the situation right now…
I’ve read… I know what’s going on in that game. With his wife. Maybe it was wrong for me to come now? Maybe I’m selfish wanting to see him at a time like this? No… I was thinking that it will help him, like it did when we first came together. It’s different now.
I walk back home, lost in thought. There is, as always, something to be done around the house. The earlier clouds have gone, leaving a hot summer afternoon.
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