[16:54] *** “hajime” signed on at Sun Feb 20 16:54:21 2005.
[19:11] hajime: (OOC: setting – late afternoon… wolf enters and head straight to the kitchen) *looks around, nothing started yet* (thinks: good)
[19:12] hide: I finish what I’m working on upstairs and come down… time for tea… no, no… milk or water… less tea. Seeing him, I smile. “Hello…”
[19:13] hajime: “Hello Hide.” *removes two containers from bag* “We’re you sleeping?”
[19:14] hide: “No, no…” I answer. “Sewing. I’m making something for Kioko-chan and wanted to send it in my next letter to my brothers.”
[19:16] hajime: “Ah good. It’s nice to see you are spending your time well.” *takes some water and puts it on the small table and returns to the counter and places the bento boxes there* “We never do use that dining room… but… I like it here better by the window.” *looks at her*
[19:17] hide: “It is nicer in here… ” peers over at the boxes, “Ooooh… what did you bring me?” I smile up at him.
[19:19] hajime: “So you don’t have to cook. I guess we’re having an early dinner” *looks out the window* “There’s still sun out…” *shrugs* “There’s salmon flakes with egg carrots and rice (Link: http://www.geocities.com/mg_batt/bento2.jpg)http://www.geocities.com/mg_batt/bento2.jpg or some roast fish with curry rice and pickled vegetables” (Link: http://www.geocities.com/mg_batt/bentoroastfish.jpg)http://www.geocities.com/mg_batt/bentoroastfish.jpg
[19:20] hide: “We could always go eat out in the garden…” I offer. “It’s not so warm by this time of day, and you can see what I’ve been up to there…” I look over at the boxes. “Thank you for bringing dinner, it looks wonderful.”
[19:22] hajime: “No… let’s stay here. You can show it to me later -after- you eat.” I tell her looking up. “Pick one, I’m hungry too.” I smirk.
[19:24] hide: I choose the one with the roasted fish, and sit down at the table. “Oh, fish, good… the writer only has chicken…” I laugh. “Don’t worry, though, I do eat… I am being very careful with myself! See,” I indicate what I’m wearing, “keeping cool… drinking less tea….”
[19:24] hajime: “Ah yes indeed…” I sit across from her and watch her face. “Finally got tired of the grass?”
[19:26] hide: “No, not tired….” I laugh. “I still must have it in the mornings… but I am drinking more milk and water… taking care of our child starts early…” I look across the table at him… still so indescribably happy to have this with him… our child! I take a bite of the fish. “Quite good, thank you… how is yours?”
[19:28] hajime: “It’s good enough.. Not as good as your cooking but.. I was starving since earlier…” I take a bite of the egg and salmon. Hmmm tastes okay… “It is good you are taking care.” I look her over and smile slightly. “Did you figure out a name yet?”
[19:31] hide: “Of course it couldn’t be as good as mine…. as I am an excellent cook,” I laugh and reach over to steal a bite out of his bento box. “A name…. someone keeps insisting that ‘Kizu’ is a good one… however, I have had some ideas… ” I pull a slip of paper out of my obi, and look over the sheet. It’s a mess, covered in half-drawn kanji and scribbles.
[19:33] hajime: “Ah yes… -her-. Don’t listen to her.” Scowls just slightly. notices her steal something. “You can have some more.” pushes his bento towards her. “So names then?”
[19:39] hide: “No, no… I just wanted a taste….” I smile. “You said you were hungry, you should eat too…” Looking over the list. “Boys names have been difficult for me… Girls, that’s been more fun. Let’s see…. ‘Yukiko’, since the baby is due in December, that means ‘snow child’… but I like flower names. ‘Yuri’ or ‘Sayuri’ for lily, ‘Sakura’ or I once knew a girl named ‘Kozakura’…” I frown, trying to read my scribbles. Pink pens… “‘Riko’ for jasmine… ‘Misaki’ is simply ‘beautiful bloom’… ‘Haruka’ for spring flower… even though it will be winter…” I laugh. “Any of those sound good?”
[19:43] hajime: “Definitely not Yukiko nor Yuri nor Sayuri… I’m afraid aside from Kozakura… None of the other name appeals to me…” I look back at her. I wish she did not have to pick flower names… Perhaps it’s because I’m not really interested in flowers when it comes to something important like this. “You’ll have to try better…” I grin slightly at her. “Unless you can get a better name I’m afraid we’ll have to use mine… But tell me what boys name did you come up with?”
[19:46] hide: I look embarrased… “Ah… my writer is -stupid- with history and the ones we found… had to be taken off the list…” I fold the paper back up, “you would have thought that I could have done -better-…” I look down at my dinner, eating a few more bites. “Do tell me yours… do you have ones for boys or girls? Or are you -certain- what I’ll be having?” I look up to smile at him.
[19:48] hajime: “No…” I look her over. “I guess women do like to use flowers for names…” she looks down at her dinner.. i sigh just slightly. “I can’t tell you -yet-. But rest assured I do not know what we’ll be having… And yes it’s much better if you smile. don’t take what i say too seriously.” I tell her.
[19:51] hide: “Ah, so shall I keep researching?” I smile brighter, resolving to get the writer to be more focused… “Flowers… I suppose that it sentimental…” I get up to stand behind him, wrapping my arms around his neck. I lean in to say, “mmm…. I am getting better at when to take you seriously…” I laugh softly.
[19:53] hajime: I put down the chopstick as she wraps her arms around my neck. “Yes do keep researching… Maybe then you’ll stumble upon it.” I look up to her as she laughs and take one of her hands and hold it for a minute. before reaching out for a glass of water
[19:56] SafetyGirl0: “I shall try to be most dilagent in my research, ne?” I kiss him on the nape of his neck. “I would like to try to figure out what sort of names you like…”
[19:58] hajime: I turn my neck slightly as she kissed it. Hmmm… What is she doing? “I guess I’m being a little unfair ne? But really what I have in mind as a name should be easy for you to guess.” I turn my head slightly back to kiss her cheek.
[20:00] hide: “Unfair… ah, no… we have time…” I sigh… so long, and only the smallest of results so far. I look over his shoulder at his dinner. “Ah, I am distracting you again, aren’t I?” Yet don’t move from where I am behind him.
[20:02] hajime: “Distracting? No… I might be tired but I do want you…”
[20:05] hide: “Tired? Mmmm…” My tongue darts out to trace a line up the back of his neck. I then lean over, taking the chopsticks from his hand and get a piece of fish, “then you should finish you dinner…” I laugh softly, my lips close to his ear.
[20:07] hajime: I think the hair at the back of my neck stood up as her tongue travels the length of my neck. She tries to feed me the fish but I push her hand away. “If I start eating that…” My breathing is starting to go slightly faster. I can feel her breathe right at my ear… “Do you intend to tire me out?”
[20:11] hide: “My intentions?” I say, as I nip at his earlobe. “My intentions for you are -very- good… I shall take it easy on you?” Ah, how long has it been but sometimes I can’t make myself behave… I want him too much. I drop the chopsticks on the table and my hands go to his buttons. “Am I too obvious for you?”
[20:14] hajime: “…” I gulp once as she nips my earlobe. unable to stop my left hand, it slowly finds it’s way to the back to touch her waist but instead finds her leg. “Obvious yes…”
[20:17] hide: My tongue runs around his ear, before going back to his earlobe, to this time suck on it lightly. “I hope you don’t mind…” I tease, before I move around the back of his neck again, this time across, with the tip of my tongue before going to his other ear. “Just as you don’t -really- seem to mind how slow I am…” A few of his buttons undone, my hands explore the skin of his chest.
[20:20] hajime: A groan escapes my lips as she tongues my ear. I wonder if this is the same back then. “No I don’t mind…” I try not to move as she assaults my other ear and her hands… I help her slightly and unbutton my shirt all the way down. “I’m telling you though… You might have to do the work today…”
[20:24] hide: “I don’t mind -at all-…” I laugh again… “You shall just have to remember the next time… but now, I want you…” I hold him tight for a moment. “Come on, can you make it upstairs?” This time I move to softly bite at the nape of his neck before letting go of him and standing back up.
[20:28] hajime: I smile at this… “If you’re sure…” I get up and lead us to the bedroom. I close some of the windows, the room tends to get a little to bright for my taste. I turn back to her… Looking… Longing… I kiss her slowly, take her face both with my hands. I’m not sure what I’m feeling right now but I do want her… Just as always. I close my eyes searching for her tongue.
[20:31] hide: “Of course I’m sure… ” I break apart from his kiss to look in his eyes, as I wrap my arms around his waist. “Every time I touch you I am -sure-….” I bring my lips back to his, opening them to play my tongue against his. My eyes closed my hands move up his back, pressing him close to me.
[20:36] hajime: Ah… Our kiss ends… for me it is bitter but yet tantalizingly sweet also. I am quiet as I move her to the futon. My hands lightly tracing the edge of her kimono. separating it just slightly and my finger just grazing in between her breast. I look at it and then her. “Hide…” Her name slides out of my lips.. I’m not really sure why either. I lock with her eyes and somehow I’m just slightly paralyzed.
[20:40] hide: “Hajime…” my voice is soft as I say his name, looking back into his eyes. “If you are too tired tonight … I don’t want to push you…” He seems slightly hesitant. “But while you’re at my kimono…” I make quick work of my obi, not opening it, but moving his hand down to my abdomen. “See… results!” I smile, too happy to see these signs… and to finally share it with him.
[20:44] hajime: I was about to protest at this… I am a man who can -perform- when needed. But she cuts me off and takes my hand into her, Ah a slight bump… My face break out in a smile. “It’s there…” I say more for my benefit than hers. I move my hand around down there feeling where the roundness starts and where it ends. I could… cup my whole hand on it. “It’s small.” I say again for myself… After lingering for a while more I remove my hand and start to re-do her obi. “Don’t get up… I want to lay beside you.” I tell her.
[20:48] hide: “Ah, it -starts- small, ne?” I smile, “but you asked me a long time ago to keep you up with results…” I stay where I am as he reties my obi and open my arms to him. Not disappointed… I can control myself, and given what is going on elsewhere… I banish those thoughts as I smile at the man I love so much… “Our child is growing, see!” I sound probably too proud of myself… but it is -amazing-… the thought of it.
[20:52] hajime: “And you are did well -again-…” I grin slightly. I think I’ve told her that before, more in tease but with things as they are now, it really does take on a new meaning. I lay into her arms and wrap my arm around her, it’s a weird feeling. almost feeling like back then when I was a child. I wish I could be more clear headed now that we are having a child. I need to be stronger I tell myself. But for now I just pull on her closer. “Soon we’ll have to do something about letting your family know.” I say quietly.
[20:55] hide: “I…. I know.” I sigh, holding him close, my hand stoking his hair. “I knew, of course, when we were there earlier that we would have to face my family… I want them to know that you’re in my life, and they do… but this will require more explination…” My brothers have always been kind and understanding, but this … I don’t know.
[20:59] hajime: I listen to her talk… As I’ve figured, this will not be a welcome news to them. I… This is because of me and I should do something… I close my eyes for a moment and try to get myself back together. I lift my head from her and settled for a grin. “Don’t think about that for now. I’m sorry I brought it up…” I brush a loose strand of hair from her temple. “I’ll take care of it.” Although I have no idea what to do. Ah well I am good at bluffing.
[21:03] hide: “No… it should be … considered.” He says he will take care of it, and I must believe that. It is another difficult topic, but… “remember what I said? That you bring it up is -important-…” I smile softly at him. “So you won’t tell me the name? You’re going to make me wait?”
[21:06] hajime: “If I tell you now… you’ll just reject it.” I smirk slightly. “However it was something, a lot of us have lived for back then.. up to now. Your writer should do more research I guess? or do you already know what it is?”
[21:11] hide: “Don’t think I’ll reject it so quickly… I am very open-minded, ne?” I kiss the tip of his nose, lightly. “I have an idea… but your writer told mine that it is a name for a boy or a girl? If it is… it is not a name I would think for a girl…” I play with his bangs. “I wonder if our child will have hair like yours, always in their face?” My smile gets brighter as I laugh a little.
[21:14] hajime: “Hmmm a girl? We can change it a little -if- it is a girl… My writer will not tell me.” She plays with my bangs and I smile. I like it when she does that. “I want our child to have your disposition… but yes if you want the hair I’m sure he or she will get it. Although, I wonder if… the child will be head strong.”
[21:20] hide: “My disposition?” I smile back at him. “You want a houseful of optimists?” I tease. “Of course, if it is a girl… you may wish for her not to be as much trouble as her mother!” I kiss his cheek. “So Kizu will not tell you either? But headstrong… that will make for interesting times!”
[21:23] hajime: “I’m not so sure about -that-…” I laugh just slightly… I’m not sure if it’s just in my blood but I seem to just produce head strong children. I pause for a moment. “They can be troublesome.” I move slight to lightly kiss her lip and settle my head once again her arm. Damn… If only I wasn’t so exhausted in mind… “I’m sorry about earlier.”
[21:27] hide: “Sorry…. don’t be….” I look up at him. “Sometimes… I love to hold you and just talk. As my writers tell me, ‘it’s not all flirting and kimono-removal…’ ” I roll my eyes a little at her attempts at humor. “That you’re here, I am happy… we will just have to make it up later, ne?” Meeting his eyes. “I do love you.”
[21:31] hajime: “Hmm.. Ah yes your writer… Bah. She’s not important either.” I tell Hide. “Ah… I shall meet with your sister in the morning.. Well whenever that morning is going to be.” frowns… “Your writer was afraid.” Then she tells me she… I -know- this. I should respond. “Yes it is the same.”
[21:38] hide: “Yes, she told me about that… I hope she can help you.” I can’t help but hold onto him… she will be kind. And before then I must apoligize to her. “The writer… you are right she is not important… and she was not afraid, your writer likes to think that she scares her… it’s a game they play, I think…” He says ‘it is the same’… he’s not told me lately. “Oh, Hajime…” I whisper, “I know…” I smile again at him, my finger tracing his frowning lips.
[21:43] hajime: I catch her finger. Why can’t I shake this? I’m right here where I want to be… Perhaps I am afraid since… I am an impatient man. If the situations were reversed, I’d probably be the first on the train to the northermost part of Japan… I close my eyes for a moment before deciding it’s time again to leave. Half here and half there it is… “I’ll see you soon? I’ll be working more the next few days so I might disappear all of a sudden.” I look down for a moment at where our child is. “DOn’t think too much, even if you do get word here and there. I’ll return to you.”
[21:48] hide: “Soon… yes… when you can, even for a moment… you know I’ll be here.” I look into his eyes. “And if not, journals, letters… songs?” I smile. “And you -better- return…” I mean for it to sound light, but something makes my voice catch. I swallow, my throat suddenly tight… I can’t send him off with tears in my eyes. “Take care… as will we.”
[21:49] hajime: I take my leave. Reaching for my katana that was left by the door. Too many things to take care of… Too little time. (OOC: Exit wolf)
[21:50] hide: Again I watch him leave… and can only hope for the day when he won’t have to so much… and go to clean up the remains of dinner. (end scene)