[19:21] *** “hajime” signed off at Fri Feb 18 19:21:09 2005.
[20:07] hajime: (OOC: start – setting late afternoon.) I turn the key slowly and there is a click. I bring myself inside and settle the paper bag on the low table of the tatami room. “I’m home…” I call out to no one in particular.
[20:08] hide: Coming out of the kitchen, I come to the tatami room… he always goes there first. I’m smiling at him calling this ‘home’… I always do. “Good afternoon, Hajime… ”
[20:09] hajime: “how are you feeling?” I ask but i know the answer already. she’ll say she’s fine as always.
[20:11] hide: “I’m a lot better… I’ve been taking it easy but I’ve eaten today.” I walk over to him, leaning up to kiss his cheek. “It seems a little cooler, too, and see? Summer kimono…” I twirl a little. (Link: http://img96.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img96&image=purplefloweryukata6mk.jpg)http://img96.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img96&image=purplefloweryukata6mk.jpg
[20:13] hajime: I watch her twirl around. She looks… “You look wonderful.” I tell her. It’s almost summer. “Where’d you get this one?” I ask watching…
[20:15] hide: I smile brighter at his compliment. “Wonderful, ah…” I laugh. “I’ve had this one… maybe a couple of summers ago?” I touch the material. “Cotton, see? Much lighter.”
[20:17] hajime: I touch the yukata. It’s light and… “maybe it’s a little thin?” I tilt my head just pensive.
[20:18] hide: “Ah, are you saying I’m not dressed decently?” I grin up at him, teasing.
[20:21] hajime: “I don’t know.” I shrug just a little. “We’ll have to see when you go out.” I go over the paper bag and hand it to her. “There’s some fruits. It will be good for you. Pomegranate and Star apples.”
[20:23] hide: I look into the bag. “Oh, thank you.” I’ve not had star apples in a while… “I’ll be making Yakisoba later, is that okay for you?”
[20:24] hajime: “That’s fine. I’m not hungry… My writer and I had a heavy lunch…” I sit and pull my cigarette out.
[20:25] hide: “Oh, good, she feeds you… does that make up at all for how boring it is to babysit her all day?” I ask, sitting down next to him.
[20:29] hajime: “She’s tolerable.” I say and look at her from the corner of my eye, going down to where our child is. I blow out a smoke and tap the ashes on the ashtray. “She made me hear that song… ” I look again “I thought you didn’t know any good ones…” Inhaling the cig, i like the way it travels from my throat…
[20:30] hide: “Oh, it’s my writer… her taste in music is horrible…” I laugh. “But I found that one when I was going through her stuff the other day… did you like it?”
[20:32] hajime: She laughs it’s familiar. I smoke just a bit more before finally nodding my head. “Yes… I had found that out a while ago.”
[20:35] hide: I reach for his hand and nod. “Mmm… glad you enjoyed it.” I look over at him. “I thought it worked for us… most of it.”
[20:37] hajime: I hold her hand and lit up another cigarette. “How’s your writer and your other ‘roommates’?” small talk… small talk…
[20:39] hide: “The writer is good… the roommates… Misao is waiting on someone,” I smile, rolling my eyes a little at the thought of the ninja girl. “But she was gald you came by for lunch. My sister is waiting on her roommate there to get back home…. And yours? Young ‘mini samurai-san?” I like the name the strange boy gave him.
[20:41] hajime: “He’s being nervous… Opens his mouth to take this girl and has no idea what to do.” I scowl a bit. Ah one of the few ones that feel a little real. “Misao…” sighs.
[20:43] hide: “Yahiko-kun is still very young… and maybe he should try to develop himself beyond the young lady? Ah, and what about Misao? More than just her legs…” I try to put on an annoyed face but I fail, a smile escaping. “You were probably the first person to address her like… an adult? A leader?”
[20:45] hajime: I ignore the comment about Yahiko. The boy annoys the hell out of me. She mentions Misao’s legs… “You really think I’m a dirty old man Hide?” I try to be clever but it seems I’m failing miserably. I shrug at her comment about addressing Misao. “That was a… favor to Kizu.”
[20:48] hide: “Dirty old man? Oh, I never said you were -old-…” I wink at him, before resting my head against his shoulder. “Ah, well, it was kind of you to do… she needs more of that. She needs to think of more than bunnies…” I laugh softly. “And I hear you visited the Tanuki?”
[20:54] hajime: She rests her head on my shoulder. It feels like years since I’ve been close to her. Years since this felt anything real at all. I slide my free hand into her. “She… I don’t know. I can’t think of the Itachi right now.” It’s true. “And the Tanuki… Was awfully agreeable it’s suspicious.” I already knew last night that she’d start talking about this… I’m quite torn with it. I look at her for a long moment and return to my tobacco.
[20:57] hide: “Well, she was having a good day, it seems. Getting all kissy by the river…” I lean up to lightly kiss his jaw. “But at least the ninja girl made sure you got fed… I worry that you don’t eat or sleep enough over there… ” I settle back against him, moving closer, frowning a little. “So I will do my best for you here, ne?”
[21:00] hajime: Ah yes… Another reason why I am not fond of the place… No food and have to gate crash to be fed… “Yes tell her… Thank you.” She kisses my jaw and I look back at her, she frowns. “You…” My voice turns very quiet. “You do more than enough Hide.” I smile a little. “And who is kissing who by the river?” I ask just for a turn of conversation.
[21:03] hide: “I … try.” I smile back at him, catching the change in the tone of his voice, and glad to see something like his real smile again. “Besides, you know where you must go for truly excellent cooking anyway…” My smile gets a little brighter. “And as for the kissing… just the Tanuki and the Rurouni.”
[21:07] hajime: “Excellent cooking… Tch… You shouldn’t cook.” I’m not sure if I’m teasing or reprimanding but then it ended up in a sigh. “You won’t listen anyway.” The rurouni and tanuki kissing… I sneer just a little. “How lucky for the ahou.”
[21:10] hide: “I -do- listen… ” I say, softly. “But I like to cook, and I’d like to do it as long as I’m able to… and I -will- eat.” I look up at him, after what he said about the rurouni and the tanuki. “Lucky… mmm… I should kiss you more, ne?” I turn to bring my lips to his, lingering for a long minute, breaking away to look into his eyes.
[21:14] hajime: Her lips touches mine and then she leaves. “Stop staring at me.” I tell her. It’s disturbing when she looks at me when I’m like this. Then I look down for a long moment at her hand. “Sumanai… I… It’s not that. I guess I’m just… tired.”
[21:18] hide: “Ah… I guess I do stare sometimes…” but how often have I caught his eyes on me? “Tired? Maybe you should rest on my lap while you still can before I get too big…” I laugh before kissing him again. This time when I pull away I keep my eyes closed. “Not staring,” I whisper, kissing the tip of his nose.
[21:22] hajime: While her eyes is closed, I rest the palm of my hand on her cheek, letting my thumb lightly graze her skin. I lean over and touch her lips with mine before putting out my cigarette. I lay down and rest my head on her lap. My face turned slightly to face her stomach. Yes this is much better…
[21:25] hide: My hands play a little in his hair. “Ah, are you going to talk to our child? Or ask his or her opinion on names…?” I smile down at him. “Have any ideas yet? I know it’s so far away…. but I’m excited…” brushing his bangs back, my finger traces his right eyebrow.
[21:29] hajime: I close my eyes… Feeling the warmth emanating from her center and feeling her finger on my skin. I feel slightly more calm, this is what’s important. We are what’s important… And I… I listen to her voice, it takes a while to find my own. “Have you thought of a name?” I ask her while I open my eyes slightly to stare at where our child is growing. I want to see it right away.
[21:34] hide: I lightly trace over his closed eyes before they open to look again at my stomach. “Mmm… a good name is important. It’s a -shame- that my writer doesn’t know more Japanese to help me research… for a girl I suppose I would like a flower name? As a nod to the garden?” I laugh softly, then I’m quiet for a moment, as I continue to gently touch his face, moving to his ear as his eyes. “A boy… oh, that’s even more difficult… tell me, have you had any ideas on either?”
[21:39] hajime: I close my eyes again. A name? Yes I have an idea… “I should not tell you until you find a few.” I whisper. “Otherwise we can’t argue over it.” I chuckle slightly and pull my head closer to her bossom. I shut my eyes tight and reach out for her hand.
[21:41] hide: “Then we shall research… I’ve had her off on more practical matters, and traditions…” I put my hand is his that reaches for mine, while my other pulls him closer.
[21:44] hajime: I turn my face up and pull at her neck to lower.
[21:47] hide: I bring my lips to him, at first softly, then I deepen the kiss, my tongue finding his. I hold onto him tightly, taking a moment to register the taste of him, the smell of him.
[21:50] hajime: Ah she read my mind… Am I really -that- obvious? I kiss her back, my tongue flicking against hers. It feels real I think. Satisfied I let her go. “Hmmm… I wonder if all women tastes like this. I wonder if I should explore.” I tease a little.
[21:56] hide: I raise my eyebrows. “Explore…” I don’t let go of him. “Are you tired of the taste of me already?” I lean back down to bring my lips just close enough to where we’re only a breath apart before pulling back up suddenly. I look at him for a long moment before leaning back down to kiss him, rougher than I usually do. I break away and lean back a little, looking up.
[22:01] hajime: I smirk as she raises her eyebrows… She knows of course that I only want…. Ah… It’s going to work I think as she leans down and I open my mouth… But she pulls away. I feign not being affected by this… DId I get her angry? Ah… No… Definitely not as she kisses me roughly and my hand touches her nape. I narrow my eyes as she moves away. I get up from her lap and sit beside her. “Hmmm… Looks like you talked to your writer a little.”
[22:04] hide: “Talked to her?” I look over at him, and move to sit in his lap. I wrap my arms around his neck, and look at him as I get comfortable. “Why, were you told something?” Those two… I try not to sigh.
[22:07] hajime: “No…” I tell her. “They talked… You know my writer is a big mouth.” Then it struck me… She seemed apprehensive, something about herself I think. “Is there something you’d like to tell me?”
[22:13] hide: “Yes, I know they talked… my writer is such a phone addict…” I lean over, my tongue tasting the part right under his chin. “Tell you… I don’t know what my writer told yours about me….” I’m thoughtful for a moment, quiet. “Ah, about when you used to talk about my sister and I becoming the same person? Yes… that did hurt… as if you were trying to tell me that I wasn’t real… ” I shift to rest my head against his chest.
[22:15] hajime: “I… don’t know.” I try to even out my breathing. “I… just…” It’s something I really shouldn’t say but I might as well. “I just wanted you to be around.”
[22:19] hide: “I wanted to be there so badly too, Hajime… just to see your face more… to make sure that -someone- took care of you… because just the afternoons were never enough.” I hold him tighter, and my eyes close. “Being there… is the one thing I can’t give you… it’s the way I’ve failed you.”
[22:23] hajime: I was right. I really shouldn’t talk about these things. A pained look is on her face. Putting up a big smile on my face, I pull her up. “BAKA! It’s not -that- important.” I laugh loudly. “Come you have to cook ne?” I smile not really looking and pull her into the kitchen. “You’ve really been lazy the past few days. Time to get your ass moving so that it doesn’t get too big when you have the baby.” I deposit her to the kitchen and sat in my customary seat by the window. “Now hurry. I’m hungry.”
[22:29] hide: “If you bring it up… it is important…” I say, quietly, looking at him. “We don’t get anywhere by avoiding these topics…” My eyes stay on him for a long moment before I start getting dinner together. “When you smile like -that- I know… that nothing has been resolved.” I smile back over at him. “I know … we won’t work it all out in one night… but don’t push it away.” I look around, and go back to the tatami room to get the bag of fruit. “I will want these later. And the pears you brought… I loved those.” I smile over at him.
[22:35] hajime: Heh… I guess she’s being more reasonable about this than I am. I make no comments on it and nod my head. I’ll just wait for the food and smoke in the mean time. “I’m a difficult man…” I chuckle slightly. “Let’s not talk about this ne?” I look at her. “Are you done cooking yet?”
[22:38] hide: “Ah… difficult… but worth it.” I wink at him, moving to get the serving dishes. “Yes, yes, done… ” I start to bring things over. “Yakisoba takes no time at all…. oh, do you want coffee? Or something cooler?”
[22:40] hajime: “No. I’ll get it myself.” I motion her to sit down. I take glass of water from the kitchen. “After this, I have to go.” I tell her. It’s late we already talked as much as we could today I think. I sit down and eat across from her quietly. (OOC: end of scene for the wolf)
[22:42] hide: We finish dinner quietly, and I watch him leave… wondering if anything we said… got through to either of us. (OOC – end scene)