Hajime,
Well, as the writers agreed… I will write to you here now.
And here I am, to say to you simply. Hajime, I love you. I want to be with you. I need you in my life, to smile at and fuss over and just to have near me.
But first… I must make you some promises. I promise to speak to you more freely, and more often. Understand… that this is new to me. I’ve always been a reserved person, but you have the ability to draw me out. Around you… I want to share everything. And I will. I promise to let you know when you are needed… even if it is only that I wish to have you beside me at night, safe in your arms, and when I wake up… that your face is the first thing I see. I promise to still be my silly, hopeful self, and to be happy with what we have… but stop being afraid to want more.
And I will ask things of you as well. To be open with you as to what I want… it’s not selfish. It took a lot to make me learn that. You do so much for me, so much good. At times we will misstep, and something will go wrong… but together, we’ll fix it. We will be stronger fo
r it. You and I are both strong alone… but together, it is so much more. There are things that bind us… and they will only get stronger as we do.
We already have so much. Do not doubt what you mean to me. Remember what I said, about surviving and thriving? Without you, I am strong, yes, and I will survive. But with you… I thrive. And I think … maybe it’s the same for you? I want you to come back. Even I’m not naive enough to think that it will be easy… but what we have is too precious and rare to not work for. Let us find this -together-… and maybe make some of those dreams we share come true.
I am ready to ask the man I love to come back. Maybe I wasn’t last night… but now… I can ask you to stay. Because I am not going anywhere.
Yours,
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