Hajime: *wolf enters* I have to speak with hide…
Hajime: *bangs on door, eventhough it is very late at night*
Hajime: Damn it! Open up! *bangs a bit more but there is no response… So he’ll wait till morning by the door*
Hide: Hajime? The writer made me sleep. *smiles*
Auto response from Hajime: I am currently away from the computer.
Hide: *sees that he fell asleep by the door – gets a blanket to put over him, and sits down beside him* *quietly* I’ll wait with you, then.
Hajime: *slowly wakes up it is still a little dark. and what’s this??? a blanket… over him? turns head to see her.. reaches out from under the blanket, places his hand over hers for a moment… watching her sleeping face*
Hide: *feels something – that familliar hand on hers, opening her eyes, blinking – he is awake – turns her hand over to hold his, looking at him*
Hajime: *tightens his hand on hers for a moment, looks at the purple sky* I… I thought you weren’t going to come out…
Hide: You called for me, ne? I’m sorry, the writer was sleeping… and I was afraid that you weren’t going to come for me.
Hajime: I wanted to kill my writer last night… But instead I came here first. *notices his breath* It’s cold…
Hide: Ah. It is… well… writers… And you’re right, it is cold… you should come inside. It is not good for you to be out here. *holds his hand tighterm lacing her fingers through his*
Hajime: *stands up, slightly tugging at her. guides them both back towards the house. but only to the “genkan” (genkan: small area before entering the main house. used to store shoes/sandals) *sits there* “This is good enough.”
Hajime: forgot to say genkan is technically inside the house and is usually a covered area w/ door.
Hide: *wondering why he won’t come inside…* Ah, okay. *sits next to him*
Hajime: *clasps his hands in front in an effort not to fidget* Were you… Did I scare you? How much did I hurt you last night?
Hide: I was scared… but more because I had wondered where you had gone, Hajime. I know… I know that there is darkness inside you, probably greater than I could ever imagine. All I can offer is to be here for you – I do not want you lost to it. *looks into his eyes* There is so much more to you than that, do you realize?
Hajime: *keeps staring elsewhere, he knows she’s looking at him but he can’t look back right now. Listens to her talk.* (thinks: to be here… that’s enough right? just to be…) Are you still sore?
Hide: A little. But I’ll be okay. *smiles* Do not worry over, it please *thinks because if you do… if you only see that … everything will be lost* *puts her hand on his* Truly.
Hajime: *sees her smile, turns head a little to look. to search her face* I don’t think I’ll ever understand you Hide.. (thinks: why you always seem happy and how you can look past things) Although, I didn’t mean what I said that I was using you… You do know that I… I feel frustrated… (thinks: not really being with you) I.. wanted to turn you away.
Hajime: I do not have doubts… I never did… But this… It’s uncertain and I somehow just fell in love with you… Somehow I didn’t even know when or how…
Hide: *sighs* I know … that this is not easy. For either one of us. Fate seemed to often to conspire against us – but we find ourselves here, ne? But I came to you – I say with you – knowing what stands in our way. I may be naive in some respects… but not that. But what I found with you – so unexpected, so unintended – I never question my choice to be with you. Our situation may be uncertain, but I need never be uncertain what we do have.
Hajime: thinks: She came knowing… Of course she did… She’s not stupid… *removes hands and pulls her closer, while burying the front of his face on her shoulder, hiding it again* I’m sorry… I doubted… (thinks: doubted so many things)
Hide: *puts her arms around him, stroking his hair, soothing* Ah… don’t… don’t doubt, and don’t be sorry. Just… *smiles* You know, I know the moment that I knew that I loved you. Did I ever tell you? It was another day – you came to visit me, as always – I never quite knew why it made my heart leap to see you come through the gates, or to hear your voice… And then it hit me – that for you I wanted to shake off the shadows, to live again, and not just drift through my life, lost in another time…
Hajime: *calms down a little. places his arms around her as if trying to draw strength from them* I want to give you much more than just -this-… what’s right now… it doesn’t seem right… nor -enough- what I do for you, i don’t even know if i’ve done anything at all… and you’ve given me so much… i hate myself.
Hide: Hajime… you’ve done so much for me. It was through you that I found my strength – and become the Hide that I want to be. You give me so much already – that you love me – that I would not, could not fault you for what we don’t have. The past is what it is – and the future – nothing is ever certain, but what we have now… we will take the future as it comes. I believe in you, I believe in what we share.
Hajime: I’ve told you before you are a strong woman… As for the future… Alright… Does it scare you that I need you? That I’m not the strong man you thought I was?
Hide: No… no… not scared. You are strong… You’ve only told me some of what you’ve seen in your life… but to need the one you love? That is not weakness. Never think that, or I could be called weak as well. *brushes the hair from his face*
Hajime: Watching her I feel much calmer. Hearing her words brings back some sanity I’ve lost when I left her that afternoon. My eyes slowly, I feel them now colored in a soft amber while I look into hers… Her eyes are very clear. Very assured. For a moment I am proud that she mentioned something about -us- and how where she is now. Where she had wanted to be. I still don’t understand it completely, but maybe I’ll stay around if only to find out what keeps her so kind to a lout like myself. I want to kiss her right now… But that would be inappropriate… And it is almost dawn. Soon it will be time to leave.
Hide: Seeing something change in his eyes, I press my lips against his forehead, briefly. Morning will be here soon. Holding him tight for just a moment, I pull away, and stand up. Holding my hand out to him, I ask “would you like some breakfast? And you should change – I did laundry yesterday so your other uniform is ready.” Ah, I shouldn’t fuss at him so… but the little ways… it’s so many little ways that I care.
Hajime: No… No breakfast… (thinks: I can’t enter that kitchen right now)… But if you don’t mind… A clean jacket and a piece of cloth. I will need those… If you can just bring it down here…
Hide: Yes, of course. *leaves, comes back quickly, bringing what he requested* Will I see you later?
Hajime: If you’ll see me… Yes. *removes jacket and folds it. replaces with new ones. Turns around from Hide and quickly wraps his left hand and grabs the soiled jacket with his right* Will you?
Hide: Of course I will. Always…
Hajime: Thank you… (thinks: for loving me) *opens the door, sees the golden sky. walks out but turns his head once to see her before walking towards the precinct*
Hide: *catches his glance before the door closes, goes to her room, sitting on the floor. Lost in thought for a few moments before starting her day*