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1. I love you. I love you more than I ever loved Souji. And certainly more than what’s in London. I went there to love -you-. Not them.
   And that’s no lie I’m saying to appease you. It’s the truth. It was the first time I told you that I loved you most. Why is that so hard to believe? With you I am loved completely, fully, and… you love me still despite the stupid things I do. With you I can love you the same way, I can love with every bit of myself, and reach for everything I need. I feel secure, that the world doesn’t always have to be a wonderful place but when we’re together it is and that you’ll protect me in the bad times. I can cry, laugh… just -live- and be myself, yet take your guidance to be the best person I can be.
   You’re my -true- love. The love of my lifetime, the one who completes me.
   I don’t cling to London. Our space is my home. London is a little world I step into occasionally. Don’t you remember how sad I was when I thought I couldn’t go? It wasn’t because I wanted to meet Souji. I wanted another world to love you in, another time and place for us. The only thing I like better in London is that I have prettier pictures. I like to be in color. Just like I want a “fancel”… because it’s a way of imagining that I had been with you all along, in that “show”… that it was your wife Hide you took Eiji home to, and you said my name with a proud look, even with the Battosai and the ninja girl gaping at you. But London only lingers in my mind because I keep thinking of how I can reach out to you there. It’s so hard to see you there and not be able to hold you, or be held by you… or have you believe me. I come out of there having felt the chill of my greatest fear… but I know your arms are open to me as soon as I step back in here, and you are mine…
   For the old days… you’ve seen my wishful thinking on that, that story that needs more chapters. There I can live out that wish I’ve had, that it was you all along. You think that I don’t think about what it could have been like? Had you come back to Mibu after the war? The children we would have, the years together… but I can’t spend all my time looking in a crystal ball thinking “what if” because I have something amazing now and I don’t want to miss a second of my world with you and our beloved little girl.
   *throws her arms up* But just remember, I LOVE THIS AHOU MORE THAN I EVER HAVE OR EVER WILL -ANYONE- ELSE. Stop settling for lies and… believe me this time. Have some faith in me that I tell you what’s in my heart it’s true, and some faith in yourself that you deserve it. *exits*

2. *Steps in where she used to be, by a rushing waterfall, thinking it was going to be dark soon and she probably won’t return there*
   *Frowns and sits down on a rock, quietly smoking*
   She loves you ahou… Remember?
   *puffs little white clouds above his head, wondering why she threw her arms up in the air*
   Tired maybe? Of course.
   *flicks the cig butt towards the water and lights a new one*

3. *Sees him by the waterfall, watches him smoking*
   *Sits down on the rock next to him, reaches over and takes his hand, lacing her fingers through his*
   You came back… *leans her head against his shoulder* Sorry for the delay.

4. *breathes easier as she leans on him. Takes an arm and places it securely on her shoulder.*
   “I heard your writer was cooking, so I thought you were giving her a few pointers. That’s why you left earlier right?”
   *pulls her in, resting his chin on top of her head*
   Tell me it wasn’t because of me. Tell me you’re not getting tired like before.
   *grips her shoulder tightly as he conciously stays his breathing*
   “I’m glad you came back.”

5. That’s why you left earlier right?
   *the tightness in her chest lessens as she feels his arm on her shoulder, and pulled into his arms* *shakes head* No… I was getting yelled at for making the writer late this morning, that’s why I had to leave so suddenly. -Then- I got to watch her bake. I was looking to see if her new toy was worth ah… borrowing.
   I’m glad you came back.
   *feels more of the tension release as he holds her even tighter* *puts her other arm around him as she snuggles into his arms* I always will. I love you, remember?

6. “Yelled at?” *looks down* “Tch… To think with all that time they spent babbling, that they’d have a right to say -anything-.”
   I always will. I love you, remember?
   *kisses her lips softly, letting his cig fall to the ground so he can touch her neck*
   “Yes I remember.” *hoarsely whispers* “You’re mine… All mine. Kami-sama -you- are -mine-…”
   *starts planting kisses on the bottom of her ear, at the nape of her neck, going down to her throat. his hand clawing at her front as he brings his lips up to meet again with hers*
   “Mine…” *his hand digging into her hair as he searches out for her tongue, tasting her sweet mouth*

7. Yelled at?
   *sighs* I know… it was bad timing, I wanted to wait for you…
   *responds to his soft kiss, her hand resting on his chest, feeling his heart beating underneath*
   *smiles* *whispers* -All- yours… and you’re mine. *leans over to kiss the hollow between his collarbones*
   *feels her skin warm under his touch, running her hand through his hair as his lips taste her, her cheeks flushing pink as she gasps in the warm night air*
   *As his tongue begins to dance with his, hers answers, stroking against his, tasting the cigarettes and that intoxicating flavor that can only be described as -his-* *Pulls herself closer as to crush her chest against his*

8. -All- yours… and you’re mine.
   Yes Hide… *nips at her lips* All yours. *closes his eyes as he lets his hand drop down to her leg, kneading like he wanted to before* *Her chest pressed against his, he could feel her erect nipples teasing through his clothing* *groans as he delves deeper into her mouth, if he could only devour her…*
   *opens his eyes and makes a quick sweep of their surroundings, somewhere where he could take her. Somewhere to lay her down*

9. *moans softly as his hand goes between her legs, and takes a hand away from touching him to remove her obi, letting the front of her kimono fall open, looking down to grin softly at the excited state that he’s already driven her to, with her tips hardened and wetness growing within her womanhood*
   *wanting him closer, realizes the rock isn’t working and catches his eyes open, looking around* *breaks free from his kiss* *whispers in his ear, licking and nibbling as her hands roam over his chest, one drifting lower* Over here… *stands and takes his hand, to a little grassy area nearby* Here… *leans up to kiss him, all while working on removing his clothes*

10. Not exactly where a grown man should be taking you… *grins slightly and stops her hand, choosing to undress himself and scatter his clothes on the ground*
    *looks at her with her kimono half-open, how she seemed to glow in the darkness. takes her by the waist and lays her down, letting her keep her kimono but splaying it wide with his hands as he starts to do his handywork. How he loved roaming his hands around her waist, kneading her sides and cupping her breast as his mouth unconsciously makes his mark on her neck. It wasn’t long till he realized he was panting, but not because of lack of breath but that he was hungry. Hungry since the other night*

11. Not exactly where a grown man should be taking you…
    A grassy field by starlight is a bit tame given some of the other places we’ve been… *glances around but soon her gaze is fixed on the man in front of her, undressing and revealing his splendid form* *slides her arms from her kimono so she can touch him back, now that smooth, warm skin that she’s been dreaming of touching*
    Ah… *sighs with a bit of a low growl as he makes his mark on her, moving her face so she can smell his hair, breathing in his scent, while moving her hand down to grasp his manhood, now hard, as she strokes and squeezes it slightly as she starts to breathe harder, feeling her need rising as she feels him throbbing in her hand*

12. “Mmmm…” Closes his eyes for a minute savoring the strokes she’s giving. How she’s gotten better everytime. After a while of feeling that mind numbing sensation, he goes back to her lips, nipping at it gently then reaching out to stop her hand. “My turn isn’t it?” Props himself up, leaving her lips with one longing kiss before making a blazing trail of quick kisses up to her navel, circling his tongue around it and dipping into it like it was her mouth he was caressing. Reaching down in between her legs, his fingers found that engorged spot of hers trapping it between his thumb and forefinger. Squeezing it slightly, wanting to make her tremor he slides his finger inside her, stroking her consistently. Needing to hear his name on her lips, he moves down on her and takes her bud into his mouth at first slow but turns rougher as he laps to drink for her womanhood. How he loved the taste of her juices.

13. My turn isn’t it
    *grins* *a shiver runs through her body as he kisses down her body, savoring it yet
    “Ha-” *caught by trying to remember to breathe, her eyes open wide as he squeezes that most intimate of places*
    “Haji-” *again unable to finish his name at the first moment as his tongue begins to taste her, overjoyed as always that he enjoys her so much, and one hands rests on the back of his head, urging him on while caressing his ears and neck*
    *groans, her body burning as the feeling of his tongue tasting her juices drives her further to insanity as he becomes more insistent, and his name finally escapes her lips as a wave begins to build within her* “Hajime… ah… Hajime…”
    *opens her eyes, the world is starting to lose focus* You… I need to… with you… *pulls on his hand*

14. -Almost- misses his name as he gets drugged by her sap. Proceeds further and deeper, replacing his finger with his tongue, pushing her folds wide apart not letting one bit escape his hungry mouth.
    The tugging on his hand seems to be reminding him of something but he just squeezes it back finding it hard to tear himself away from that part of her.
    With a gutteral sound, he moves his mouth away from her womanhood with a pop. Lifting his head, meeting her eyes, his as glazed as hers. Sees her erect nipples and by instinct he pounces on it kneading it with both hands, pursing them together devouring both peaks almost violently until they were purple. But a sharp pain in his groin woke him up to an earlier request.
    Placing her legs on his shoulder, he aligned himself and plowed into her womb. “Ah Hide…” He pants as he shivers, like this she was so tight. The pressure she was exerting on his shaft was driving him mad and he pummeled his rod to go deeper. If only he could reach those lips, he thought to himself.

15. Just when she thinks that there’s nothing more he can do to raise her more, his fingers enter her as well. Writhing now, she hears the pop as he leaves her but still she burns for him…
    His eyes find hers, and a smile crosses her panting lips as her hungry eyes answer his… feeling warm in another way.
    Finally he enters her, and her his arch up at the feeling of his manhood sinking within her, as he moves so fast, and her muscles grip and pull at him. But something… her arms ache for him just as much as her womanhood does for release.
    “Hold me… hold me close,” she whispers, reaching out for him, opening her eyes, now glowing with passion, to look at him. The lips she’s longing for, to feel his breath and taste his sweat and the little sounds that manage to come out…

16. Deeper… Faster… He egged himself on as each fibre of muscle in his body seems to burn and the steam rising off his back forms sweat there up to his forehead. How wonderful to feel this again, the passion he has with her how he hated stopping himself anywhere.
    “Hold me… hold me close,”
    “Yes Hime… YES.” Releases her legs, guiding it with his hand so that she make hook it to his hips. Dropping down to his elbow, hovering over her lips that screamed to be taken into his. Nudging her lips to part with his tongue, he enters her there too sucking as he caught her tongue. His left hand finding hers, entwining itself in such small hands as he grinds his hips. He was so close…
    “God Hide… I love you.” He blurts out in between the kiss and finally buries himself in her neck. His whole body pressing against her small frame with each thrust, his hand that held hers, dug into the ground. With loud groan he explodes in several spurts. It was as if he could not stop emptying himself into her, just like he couldn’t stop tasting her neck, the edges of her ear. How salty and earthy they were. How he wanted to keep on going but found himself shattering again.

17. Yes Hime… YES
    How just -words- cause me to spiral higher in this plane of earthly ecstasy, hearing that dearest name from his lips… and as he gives me my request, hands guiding, my lips claimed again by his… lips that still carry the taste of my womanhood, I delight in my Hajime’s taste mixed with mine.
    Floating and exploding… moving in perfect time, a lovers rhythm, a song without words, only names panted, declarations…
    God Hide… I love you
    With that I grip the hand that holds onto mine, take one more kiss, one more thrust, I open my eyes one more time to look at him… -him-… my Hajime, my man, my center… feeling that shifting, that bit of a movement that tells me how close he is… -we- are… as my other hand runs up and down his sweat-slicked back, as any sense flies from my mind and it’s that glorious feeling, as if all time and space has stopped and it’s just him and I, melting into one another.
    With one last muscle-clamping grip I feel it… his release, his gift pouring within me while feeling his tongue, drinking in my sweat, as I shake and cry out, almost -crying- at the exquisite feeling of it, so total and overwhelming… so complete.
    My small hand holds onto his large one, a grip still strong as the rest of my body starts to fall still and soft… my arm that was before so frantic now lies across his back, keeping him close, and I smile… tired, but a radiant smile. “I love you… Hajime… I love you…”

18. I lie still on top of my woman. -Mine-. My head doesn’t stop to chant that word. This always losing battle with myself, to be needed and wanted -completely-. I lie still my chest still thumping, my head still spinning, her presence overwhelming me.
    Slowly I get off her, glancing at the opening of her kimono, that body that I just ravaged. I feel proud somewhat and I reach down to close it. -Mine-. I remind myself.
    Finding my soiled pants across from her, I put them on. I’ll get my jacket from under her later, besides I still want to lay down. So I do just that and look above, a blanket of stars were spying on us earlier. I chuckle.

19. I reach up and take the last of the pins out of my hair, letting it fall around me as Hajime covers me up, and finds -some- of his clothing. I laugh, spying the black shirt thrown back over near the rock… I catch his eyes on me and I -still- feel like I’m glowing, even as I slowly begin to breathe normally again.
    I’m his…
    And he’s mine…
    Hajime comes back to lie next to me and I slowly roll to my side, wrapping myself back around him and settling my head on his shoulder, not wanting to be even an inch away. “Ah Hajime… I can barely move…” I grin. I reach up and wipe back the last of the sweat lingering at his brow, and bring my fingers back to my lips for another taste of the passion we set off together. Sweet… salty… “You taste like love,” I say, reaching back for that hand that held onto mine so tightly tonight.

20. “Ah Hajime… I can barely move…”
    I look back at her, a little alarmed but she’s grinning and I realize it’s probably the same thing as I experienced earlier. “Lie still for a moment.” But instead she’s already tasting me again and I just shake my head at her “comment”.
    Holding her hand I pull her closer to my chest that’s still beating wildly. I guess it’s not over yet. “Ah… I kept you too long.” Reaching for a cigarette, I light it up, taking a slow drag and closing my eyes, “That writer of yours will most probably complain.”

21. Lie still for a moment
    He shakes his head as I don’t… “it’s just hard to resist you…” I smile, but it’s more than just that. It’s that need for him that manifests itself in so many ways.
    That writer of yours will most probably complain.
    I shake my head. “No… I’ll make sure she doesn’t.” I laugh and settle on his chest, still hearing his heart beating. Is mine still so loud too? I grin to myself. Probably “But we should find a place for the night, I want to stay with you.” I breathe in the smell of his cigarette, looking up at the stars, hearing crickets in the night. “Thank you… for coming back tonight… for everything.”

22. “But we should find a place for the night, I want to stay with you.”
    I know a cabin… There’s no fireplace but, I think it should do for the night. I’m still so warm anyway
    She thanks me and I don’t know why. It was me who asked for her. Finishing the smoke, I plant a short kiss on her lips. Our time is done for now. “Let’s go. You’ll be cold if we stay like this.”
    Standing up, I take her hand. Now to just get my shirt… Ah there it is…
    (OOC: End)

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