In the Past…

My writer as I’ve said before is an audiophile. She likes every music genre especially the romantic Japanese ones from Anime. *rolls eyes* So… It’s no wonder that she found this song while acting as my “ward” in an alternate universe that she forced me exist in… The whole idea she had I think, being the sap that she was, she’ll have me commit a big mistake for Japan or perhaps just be my paranoid self such that I’ll have to leave my loved one… Of course she’s a sucker for happy endings so it will be the stereotypical ending where I return to where I belong. To where someone was waiting patiently and that love can make the impossible, possible.
See the only problem was that she couldn’t make an accurate guess of the future. If the person whom I am bound to was actually the right person for someone like myself. Perhaps the problem is she “assumed” her to be and had too high of a hope. Tokio my wife, indeed I know her to be an equal and probably a better person than myself, but then again just because you have the name Tokio does not mean she’s the person I know.
That’s how I found -her-. I knew she was not Tokio at all and she was separate from the person whom people call my wife, but she had the qualities of the woman whom I will respect and love. She supported me in my duties to this country and did not begrudge me for it. She had faith in what I did whether it looked shady or not. She comforted me in those turbulent times when I needed something else aside from the firm belief that what I did was right… No man is an island in that respect. But most of all, she smiled for me back then and welcomed me into her home even with the uncertainty between us. Hers was what they’d call unconditional love, I think. That bothered me for a time, for how can one love a man who’s always going about his own business and sometimes hurting those whom he respects and loves? But perhaps that’s just it… It was unconditional.
So in time, although Kizu had mad hopes for myself finding peace and perhaps happiness in my estranged wife… That will not happen -there-, but it did happen with the most unexpected person whom crossed my path. I had qualms early on about dedicating a song that Kizu had so adamantly said to Hide’s writer was for Tokio… Well that song I decided can only be for one person… The one person who had to give up a part of herself to make me realize a promise I made to myself a long time ago. Although I miss the old days when we could talk and feel comfortable with each other… She offered me a place where I could -live-, a life with her and our child Makoto. I knew the moment I heard our child’s name, that she did not hate me for being the difficult man I was back then, even if she did leave me when I begged her not to. For how can you name a child, a name that her father insisted if you did not love that man back?
I’m almost done leaving the past behind, leaving what I know to have been true and canon back then. It doesn’t matter what other people think, at least -there-. I’ve gotten over surviving and when she called for me, I knew it was time to thrive and live again. I’m glad Kizu finally understood… So there’s no other person I will ever give this song to, except for her. And whether Hide remembers, or whether she likes it or not. I shall always find her, because there is a part of me that shall always belong to my Hime-sama. *smiles*
Ginga no Hikari (Listen)
It’s been countless nights since then.
Since I’ve gotten over being alone.
Yet I continue to see it inside my shallow dreams,
my wish of having you.
You gave your all just for me.
Your smiles and tears…
I can picture when it all fell apart.
To embark on that voyage to tomorrow again.
I’m tempted to shout out in this sparkling space.
shout towards my beloved inside this heart of mine
no matter how far apart we are, this love will never fade.
because for all time, my heart will long to be by your side…
So if it’s in the cards someday..
Like nothing ever happened
I long to cross this night sky to find you
and hold you sweetly in my arms
I vow to never forget them,
our promises, our future..
even if we can’t get those days back,
I’ll never say goodbye
These sparkling stars will deliver my love to me
they’ll bring me to my one true love
as long as destiny allows, i’ll continue on my journey
someday i’ll be back by your side
I’m tempted to shout out in this sparkling space.
shout towards my beloved inside this heart of mine
no matter how far apart we are, this love will never fade.
because for all time, my heart will long to be by your side…