It’s been a while since I’ve been to this place, I think to myself as I place the log into the fireplace. Throwing a lighted match, I wait until the wood started showing a small ember at one end. Standing up I look around and notice the places where it’s gathered dust. Taking a small rag, I wipe the low table clean first and arrange the square pillows. When was it that I came here last? It must’ve been over a year ago wasn’t it?
Tossing the rag to the side I open a window and look out where it’s dark, the water glimmers under the moonlight. The place by the dock is as dark as it is lonely. There were no alligators nor crocodiles in this place, unlike what I told her once. If we had wanted to we can actually swim there albeit the cold water.
I start to smoke and my mind drifts to another place, where I just left a wailing idiot. I’m sure the moron will be just fine. It’s just a change after all and everyone knows nothing in this life stays the same. We can only go back to places we’ve been and wonder how much has changed since then.
Blowing a smoke, my eyes sweep the room, from the sake that’s by the table and a plate of yakitori that’s probably gone cold by now. I wonder why she chose this place to meet of all places. Did she miss it? I sit by the window and smoke some more, listening to the crescendoing sounds crickets and katityds make this night in fall.
In the middle of nowhere
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It takes me a while to find this old place, back in the woods. I like it because of all of the places he could take me in the world, all that matters is that he’s there… there’s many places we could dine and dance, but after this separation I want it just to be us.
I enter the small cabin, carrying my bundle. I see him smoking by the window… he always does like that. “I hope I’m not late,” I say with a smile at seeing him, and my heart still jumps a little. I set my things down on the table and go over to him, standing behind him and wrapping my arms around his shoulders, kissing his cheek. “Good evening, my ookami-sama.”
?EURoeI hope I?EUR(TM)m not late,?EUR?
Late? Wasn’t she a day early yesterday? I flick the cigarette out of the way and reach for her arm that is around my shoulder, slightly tugging at her so she goes in front of me.
?EURoeGood evening, my ookami-sama.?EUR?
“Hmmm…” I smile slightly upon seeing her face after pulling her to the front. “It is a nice evening.” I cup her cheek. “It’s good to see you.” In fact it’s really -really- good. Being alone was doing me no favors after all.
“So what did you bring for me? Aside from yourself I mean.” A grin escapes me as I eye her from head to toe. Is it me or is she looking much better than usual. I know it’s probably just me…
He pulls me around to the front, and then I lean in to embrace him. I -saw- him last night but ah… it’s always good. I nuzzle my cheek against the hand that caresses me so gently, feeling his warmth seek through my skin. I close my eyes and smile, enjoying this simple touch.
“Mmm… -very- good to see you as well.” I open my eyes, drinking in the joy of just being with him again.
>>So what did you bring for me? Aside from yourself I mean.
I laugh. “Well aren’t I enough?” I grin at him and stand up, my hand still resting on his shoulder, as if I can’t stop touching him… “But I did bring dinner, and it looks like you did as well. If you could build a fire? We could warm up dinner and make sure we’re warm for the night.” I smile and go back to the table, and the largest bundle, a soft, fluffy rug, I lay in front of the fire. “I thought it would be a good place for dinner as well.”
I start opening the containers I brought. I do love cooking for him..
?EURoeWell aren?EUR(TM)t I enough??EUR?
I could’ve probably answered that but I fear where it would lead us right away. And I know she cooked so… I cut off whatever she’s saying about food and kiss her fully on the lips and squeeze her waist, indulging in it like I couldn’t last night. Willing myself to let go, I check the fireplace. Hmmm I suppose I didn’t notice that the ember died. I throw another match in and hope it works this time.
Sitting down on the rug, only she would know where to get one so fluffy, I watch her get prepared while sipping the sake I brought earlier. Do I really want to eat? Ah…
Stop that you moron…
“So let’s see here… What did you bring me?”
It’s -hard- to concentrate on the food when I still have that kiss of his lingering on my mind… but I don’t know how he’s been eating all this time and I don’t like the idea of him eating “junk” that comes in those odd cold boxes.
I bring over the container of kake soba. I used a type of container that comes from another place, like this rug, which keeps it warm, but I place it on the hearth. On a small tray I place the yakitori, letting it heat up, and I use some of the tsuyu from my soba to baste it back to fresh tenderness. I open the container of inari, and another of vegetables.
I can’t help but steal glances back at him as I kneel in front of the fire. “How have you been since last night? Sleep well?” I bring out the special jars for coffee and tea. Handing him his cup, I can’t help but steal a kiss. “Ready for dinner?” I ask.
It looks like she stole some “conveniences” from the other places she’s been. I don’t mind actually and besides it’s not like it makes her any less of a cook. Basting the yakitori with tsuyu was actually quite resourceful of her.
?EURoeHow have you been since last night? Sleep well??EUR?
“Better than the past few months.” I say honestly. “I did keep wondering about that old new year superstition however.” I try not to glance at her as I take a healthy helping of soba and inari on my plate which almost spills when she lunged in for that kiss.
?EURoeReady for dinner??EUR?
“No I’m not ready for dinner Hide. Not when you keep…” Shaking my head I put the food aside and take her into my lap. She knows it’s hard to be interested in food when we’re both… With a chuckle I change her to straddle my lap, facing me. “Hmm remember the old days hime-sama? When we couldn’t finish a meal? I thought we’ve outgrown that.”
I smile at him. “I slept well too…” I feel… safe and secure, and -loved-, drifting off together like that. It’s one of those subtle intimacies, to share your unwaking time with someone.
“Ah, -that- new years superstition.” New Years is even more special now, I could never have imagined that.
>>Hmm remember the old days hime-sama? When we couldn?EUR(TM)t finish a meal? I thought we?EUR(TM)ve outgrown that
I laugh. “Hajime, I think we will be -grey- and still forgetting dinner once we share one of those -looks-.” I look at him, knowing that it’s not the fire on the hearth that’s making me feel this -warm-. “I like that about us.” This passion, this way we have of expressing things that there’s just no words for… I lean in, setting his coffee cup out of the way, as I softly kiss my way across his face, from the tip of his nose, to his chin, hovering above his lips before going in for a long, slow kiss. Breaking that, I kiss up to his ear, nibbling on the lobe as I pick up his hand.
“Besides, dinner can always wait. Sometimes… -I- can’t.”
Meeting his eyes… ah, well, I -know- how he likes that as I take his finger between my lips.
?EURoeHajime, I think we will be -grey- and still forgetting dinner once we share one of those -looks-.?EUR? -. ?EURoeI like that about us.?EUR?
Wrapping my hand through her hair, I take little strands and caress them in between my fingers. “You’re awfully young looking for your age.” I smile at her. I could’ve said it to flatter her but it’s -true-, especially when she’s beside an old brute like myself. I settle in resting my back against the table, letting her have her way with me. Not that I didn’t particularly enjoy it… In fact I savor it quite well, the light kisses. I return her soft kisses and try not to take it over as I wrap both my hands in her hair. It would be so easy to just dominate her but… I remember an old dream I’ve always had for us so instead I coax her and softly squeeze her shoulder, letting myself sigh as she nibbles on my ear. It is wonderful.
?EURoeBesides, dinner can always wait. Sometimes?EUR? -I- can?EUR(TM)t.?EUR?
“You have a way of stating the obvious.” I say with a chuckle but a the mirth in my voice is gone once she does that -thing-… She knows she shouldn’t do that. I’m rather helpless when she does that to me, it must be so obvious as I can’t tear my gaze away. This woman…
Closing my eyes, I take my hand back. The warm fingertips reminds me of how it feels to be inside her. Suddenly I feel very hot and I can feel my eyes narrow at her, “Take off that kimono… Unless you don’t intend to keep it.”
>>You?EUR(TM)re awfully young looking for your age
I smile at that. “Just right to match with you.” I like being middle-aged with this man… he makes me feel young yet ageless all at once. He kisses me back, and then I hear… a sigh? I kiss along his neck, alternating kisses with little nips, going down to that place I like around his collarbone…
>>Take off that kimono?EUR? Unless you don?EUR(TM)t intend to keep it
I see those narrowed eyes… I stand up, and remove my obi, and then the rest of my kimono, pulling out the rest of my hairpins so that my hair cascades freely down my back. I stand in front of him for a minute, and then slowly turn. Even in my middle age, “plump” in some places, when I feel those eyes on me… it’s been so long, and my eyes gleam in the firelight. I grin over at him, and settle back astride his lap. “It’s a favorite of mine.” I lean in to kiss him again, my tongue seeking entry to dance with his, but I break it off. “Hmmm… you’re a bit overdressed. If you’re cold, I’ll keep you warm…”
As I kiss along his neck again, I work on the buttons of his shirt and have it off, and then I smile. “Ah, see, this is better.” My breasts press up against his bare chest, as I go in for another kiss. This taste… I shall never be able to have my fill of.
?EURoeJust right to match with you.?EUR?
I don’t say anything to that but I do manage a smirk.
She does remove the kimono. Good I didn’t want to rip it off her, although the thought certainly was appealing… She takes her time knowing that I’m watching and enjoying every minute of it. That slow turn which gave me a nice “view” of her sillouhette is so much better than the twirl when she is -in- a kimono.
?EURoeIt?EUR(TM)s a favorite of mine.?EUR?
“It would’ve been a shame then.” I say and nip at her lips but that doesn’t last long as she undresses me. Not that I wouldn’t have done it myself, but I do like it when she does it for free. The tip of her breast pressing against me isn’t a bad extra either.
?EURoeAh, see, this is better.?EUR?
“You think so?” I place her hand on my belt and grin at her. Ah it’s a bit of an overkill but why not?
>>You think so?
I nod. “See, this is much better, ne?” I lean back, away from the delightful warmth of him so that my hands are free to roam my chest, and then I follow that with kisses, like I had started last night.
He guides my hands and I grin. “Yes, you are overdressed and it’s rather warm in here.” I “fumble” with the belt and his pant buttons, letting me feel what lies underneath the material as I indulge in yet another kiss. I scoot off of his lap, back onto the rug and pull his pants off, one leg at a time. My eyes go to glance at his manhood. “Mmmm…” I shift onto my knees, moving up to where I can kiss down his body again, teasing his nipples with little bites, my fingertips skimming along his manhood.
?EURoeSee, this is much better, ne??EUR?
“Much… -much- better.” I say closing my eyes, feeling her hands skimming down my waist. Her hands brushes across my shaft and I grit my teeth at that and decide I better help her get my pants off, otherwise she might actually set me off right here. I do catch her “staring” and I hide a smirk but all thoughts fly from my head as her soft hands touches my shaft. I close my hand over hers and guide her on how exactly I like it. I grin slightly and kiss her lips, moving down her neck and back up her earlobe. I whisper, “So now that you’ve done most of the work… What was it that you were planning to have me do? Maybe I can return the favor…”
Hajime guides me in how to touch him, and I do, wrapping my hand around his hardness and slowly moving up and down. I like -feeling- the reactions from this…
>>So now that you?EUR(TM)ve done most of the work?EUR?
I can only grin… then I shiver as I feel those lips along my neck, moving it just so as to give him more access, and I settle back astride his lap, leaving enough as to still be able to touch him. His breath hot against my skin…
>>What was it that you were planning to have me do? Maybe I can return the favor?EUR?
I arch my back up, my nipples standing at attention. “Plan? Hajime, you’re very imaginative and you know so well… how to make your Hime-sama melt for you.”
She doesn’t give me an answer… My grin gets even wider and I take her to lie on her back as I tower over her.
“Here.” I slide a throw pillow under her head. “It might be a fluffy rug but it’s still on the floor.”
I lean in for one more kiss on her lips, clamping my mouth tightly on hers, fighting with her tongue, entwining it with mine. I could feel the heat rise up to my face and it takes some effort to finally break it off. My hands roam her body, starting from her bossom, then up above her navel, through her stomach until I found myself kneading her ample breast. I take one of her hardened nipples into my mouth and suckle on it, the plumpness doesn’t escape me. It seems much fuller than before… I wonder if it’s already starting, changes to the body of the woman who carries my child. Squeezing the other breast, it’s as full as this one. Soon she’ll be filled with milk and… Somehow the thought excites me and I suck on her harder, closing my eyes pretending it was that time already.
Unconciously my hands travel down to the mound between her legs and I give it a good squeeze before my fingers start to trace the folds that guards her womanhood. She’s so warm down there and it takes little effort for my fingers coated with her juices to find her bud. I stop my assault on her chest and go back up to give her a kiss and a soft squeeze on that small flesh caught between my fingers.
>>It might be a fluffy rug but it?EUR(TM)s still on the floor
I grin. “And it won’t leave you with scratches like the tatami.”
I let out a sigh as he finds my breast, that’s what my body had been crying out for but ah… this man knows me. It’s followed by a moan, at the jolt of feeling that delightful sucking sensation… soon they will be so sensitive and tender… oh, the fun we will have then. The stages of bringing our child into this world, the changes as my body ripens and grows, will show us more ways to enjoy each other… A laugh rises and I realize already… that I’m panting a little at his insistent attention.
His fingers slide towards my center, and from his touch I can feel just -how- wet I was, and I can’t stop myself from writhing slightly, my hips shifting and legs spreading to encourage the attention, a sensation that travels from my core to my entire body as I feel this warmth… this warmth he calls up in me that I’ve not felt in a long time. I kiss him back, my lips hungry, and I can again reach for his manhood, and return my hands to giving it loving attentions… mmm… he seems to have enjoyed this as much as I have been.
The kiss is broken by a gasp as he finds that little spot, and I groan. At least out here in this little cabin, there’s nobody to disturb but the crocodiles.
I was certain I heard a short laugh just now, even through this haze, unmistakably I heard it, a manifestation that she’s enjoying this as much as I do. My old friend, my woman, my lover, mother of my child and soon my wife… The many things she has been to me. I take her face with both my hands and kiss her so deeply like I’ve not done in a long time. I’m rewarded with a hungrier kiss from her and a hand on my throbbing shaft. I close my eyes enjoying her strokes, one that sends me shivering at each pull that she makes. If it goes on like this… Much as I’d hate to… I stop her hands and shake my head. Words escape me at the moment but she should know what I want.
Reaching down I part her legs knowing she’s been ready for me for quite some time now. “Sumanai.” I whisper to her mostly because I’ve not done a complete service for her tonight but any longer… I want this with her so I sheath myself fully into her welcoming warmth. I seeth sligthly and bury my forehead on her shoulder moving slowly, relishing this moment of much anticipated intimacy. I lift my head to watch her face, wondering what’s painted on them. Hoping she feels just like I do. Pathetic isn’t it?
No. Not really.
Even in all of this. a kiss, just a kiss, in that way of his, can completely surround me and make me lost to everything but the things… our lips can’t say the words, but I -feel- them. He never has to -say- it. The look in his eyes, the language between two lovers… I know everything I need to know. Once the kiss ends I can’t help but smile at up him. I’m -happy-. And I know he is.
Words again aren’t needed as he shivers… his hand moving mine only reinforces it… that it’s time. It’s time we join each other in this dance.
My body embraces him as he enters me, fully, complete, and for that moment as he’s fully sunk within me and doesn’t move, as we’re joined as deeply as it is physically possible for two people to -be-… the world just stops and I take in a gasping breath, as he then begins to move and I move back, matching his slow pace. It’s been so long but ah… time slips away now, the lonely nights without him, waking up with burning dreams of just this moment, and it’s all about now, finally, that we’re here together. I hold him close as he rests his head against me.
My Hajime looks at me then, and does he see how flushed my face -feels- at this moment? The fire in my eyes still burning? My lips parted as I try to breathe, only to be torn open as a moan escapes as another plateau is found?
I look at him, those eyes that shine gold at this moment, and my body continues its answer to his, my arms holding him so close that the hardened tips of my chest dig into his.
A shudder runs through me, and the muscles within tighten, gripping, and I arch up, crying out as the pleasure begins to become too much, racing towards that final point. I whisper his name before going for a kiss… he should know, I want to reach that with him.
The look on her face, the fire in her eyes and just how perfectly her lips are parted has a way of disarming me. Intently I watch her, liking what I see, getting encouragement from it. Eagerly I hoist myself up a little to get some leverage. I know with the way she’s breathing, the sweat on her forehead, her eyes, that noise and just the way her body moves so in tune with mine, it won’t be too long now for us. Inside her muscles grips me tighter as I start to pummel into her with more urgency, with more strength. My name on her lips only fuels me to go faster, to get to that point where every thing will stand still except for our breathing. Kissing her back, I wonder if she can still breathe, I’m barely able to at this point… Suddenly, I feel it rushing out of me, pouring into her much like when the waves touches the shore. The feeling of it is almost as poetic as that imagery, it is humbling but also empowering. That someone like her accepts allows someone like me to be with her like this. I kiss her one last time, as it ends and I stay still for a moment listening to her breathe. Slowly I roll to my back, looking up at the ceiling, clearing my head.
He moves faster, faster, harder, which only makes me answer back, all of my being going towards this, as we run together, joined, to this paradise we’ve discovered.
And then… I shatter, falling, I hold onto him, and everything else melts away except for Hajime, the feeling of him within me, and then filling me with his gift, and the feeling echoes through my entire being, from the tips of my toes down all the way up to my head. I don’t know how I breathe during this, I never have, but I -do-, because when I land, spent and dizzy, sweat dripping down my forehead.
We’re still, holding each other as the earth stops spinning and slows back down again. As we remember how to breathe….
He rolls over and I follow onto my side, leaning against him, my head on his chest, above where his heart still beats rapidly. I reach for his hand, holding it in mine.
Later, I will heat up the food again. But there will always be food later for now… I want to share in this moment, the quiet after a storm, after so much was said when we never spoke a word. As I -bask- in the love I feel from him, and how utterly loved and cherished I feel at this moment.
Yes, it was a while. But I am -patient- because I know … just how wonderful he is.
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She settles her head on my chest, much like she’s always done after moments like this one. Holding back her hand I squeeze it slightly and kiss her hair.
“Sleep for now. It’s really late.” Stroking her hair, I know sleep will visit me as well soon. It looks like we’ll be having breakfast instead. I try not to chuckle at that.
The wait was worth it after all. She was wonderful, always was. I had wondered how things might’ve changed after our long separation, but it looks like if it did, I’d be hard pressed to notice. Thank kami for that.
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