Hajime: how’s hide doing? *smirks*
Hide: She’s doing quite well.
Hajime: good. just wanted to know. *chuckles*
Hide: *Hide pops in* And how’s Hajime?
Hajime: Fine… *smiles* Thought your writer would keep things to herself… *chuckles*
Hide: Oh, she does. Sometimes.
Hide: I’ll just go then, if you want to talk to her…
Hajime: no… *grabs her*
Hajime: i just didn’t expect to see you. that’s all.
Hide: Ah. I like to keep you surprised, you know… *smiles*
Hide: I didn’t really expect you either, though…
Hajime: Hmm? Why is that? *looks puzzled*
Hajime: I told you I’d keep seeing you correct? *tilts head*
Hide: Yes, yes… it’s just a little earlier in the evening. You must have missed me today since Safety wouldn’t let me write e-mail.
Hajime: Perhaps… *chuckles*
Hajime: Are you uncomfortable?
SafetyGirl0: Uncomfortable? No…
Hajime: Ahh… Alright. *looks contemplative* Anything bothering you?
Hajime: or anyone for that matter?
Hide: Other than Safety, no. *laughs* I have been… quite -content- these past few days.
Hajime: Sou ka. *finally let’s go of her arm* Yes… I guess you are right… I did miss you.
Hide: I missed you as well. *takes his hand*
Hajime: *smiles* You’ve been -content-… *chuckles* That’s a little different.
Hide: Different? Maybe. Sometimes… it’s a little quiet *thinks: and you have been treating me so carefully lately… but I understand*
Hajime: Quiet… you like quiet… *chuckles* I guess women do like that… As to why I don’t think I’ll ever know. *looks at her again, eyes lingering*
Hide: Well, quiet is a relative term, I think… *laughs* It depends.
Hajime: Is this your preference? or not?
Hide: It’s not that I’m afraid of change – I’m not – I wouldn’t be -here- if I was. But … I hope never to see what we saw back in Kyoto ever again. That’s what I mean by “quiet” being a relative term. *looks thoughtful*
Hajime: You won’t see it… At least not here in Tokyo. *shrugs and starts smoking* I wasn’t asking about that though… (thinks: change… Is it time that I change Hide?)
Hide: What were you asking about, then?
Hajime: Betsuni… *shrugs* I’m glad you are content. (thinks: with the silence ) That’s all.
Hide: And I am glad that you are here. *smiles, thinking, I hope I don’t sound silly with that… *
Hajime: (thinks: I’m starting to get as worse as Souji) *sigh* I’m glad to be here to.
Hajime: and -thanks- for coming out. you must be doing something else and I have interrupted. my apologies.
Hide: No, no… it is fine. I want to see you… *moves closer, looking up at him*
Hajime: *Narrows eyes as she moves closer.* Hide… I’m sorry… *grabs her from the door and kisses her just a bit too long*
Hide: Don’t be! There’s…. nothing to apoligize for. *thinks: how can I get through to him… that I want him to be comfortable with me again, and stop seeing what happened?* Just… be yourself with me.
Hajime: *hugs her tighter settling his face on her shoulder, can’t really think of anything to say*
Hide: *puts her arms around him, closing her eyes* Hajime… *just not sure what to say at this point, other than to hold him*
Hajime: *notices her holding him feels a little calmer* Alright then. I’ll let you go. *slowly pulls away from her*
Hide: *touches his face, briefly* Let me go -now-, then, but you will come back later? *looks in his eyes* If you would like dinner then? It is nice enough to eat in the garden…
Hajime: ah… I -want- to stay Hide… (thinks: pathetic…)
Hide: Then stay. *smiles*
Hide: You don’t need to ask. Ever.
Hajime: *smiles back and sits again on the stone bench…* Alright… But… what will you feed me?
Hide: *sits back next to him* I did get some good fish when I went out this morning… or I could always make you soba. *grins*
Hajime: Soba is always good… As for the fish… I think it -might- be dangerous to feed me that. *grins*
Hide: Ah yes, yes, as I’ve learned… someone is rather incabable of feeding himself. *sighs dramatically*
Hajime: *chuckles* It’s only happened with you around… I think it’s some sort of disease. *smirks*
Hide: Ah? So I effect you -that- much, then?
Hajime: *grits teeth* (thinks: don’t scare her by saying “yes”) I suppose… just a little…
Hide: Just a little? *smiles, taking his hand* I see… but, if I recall, I had to be fed as well. Maybe we’re both rather effected at times.
Hajime: Right… (thinks: okay must not be that icicle this moment) So are you going to make me wait? *grins*
Hide: Fine, fine! *laughing, gets up* If you’ll wait just a moment, I will be right back. *leaves, heading to the house*
Hajime: *watches her… *
Hide: *back, carrying a tray and with a blanket draped over one arm* Sorry that took so long – can you help me with all of this? I brought a blanket so it will be more like a picnic. *laughs*
Hajime: *chuckles and takes the blanket* I thought you were serving me. *shakes head*
Hide: I didn’t say that I wasn’t. *grins, raising her eyebrows, as she puts down the tray*
Hajime: have you eaten plain soba before? *sits down*
Hide: Yes… *sits down beside him, bringing the tray closer*
Hajime: do you like it? *thoughtful*
Hajime: and what soba is this? *grins knowing she forgets*
Hide: I like it… not possibly -every day- *gives him a look*. It’s Zaru-soba, that’s what you prefer, ne? I brought sauce as well…
Hajime: *laughs* Did you make this yourself or did you buy from the store? *takes the soba and dips*
Hide: I made this. I learned from my grandmother how to cook. *smiles* Although more of a Kyoto-style… I am learning other things. How do you like it?
Hajime: It’s passable…. *makes slurpring sounds*
Hide: Then I shall have to practice more. Often. *laughs*
Hajime: Perhaps you do not know my standards in soba… Passable is at least as good as any soba stands… *grins as he watches her*
Hide: Ah, well, I know you have -very- high standards… I shall always -try- to live up to them. *amused smile*
Hajime: Puts down the soba moves it closer to her.. * “have some..”
Hide: I shall. *dips the soba in the sauce, eating it, thoughtfully* It is as I thought. I am an excellent cook… *grins*
Hajime: Don’t overestimate yourself on cooking… *chuckles* and i think you’ve had enough.. *grabs the bowl again*
Hide: *swats his arm playfully* Go ahead….
Hajime: *puts down the bowl instead and moves closer* thanks for letting me -stay-.
Hide: *moves the tray aside to sit against him* I’m glad when you do.
Hajime: *slowly wraps one arm around her… and strokes her hair* You have dark brown eyes or black?
Hide: *tilts her head back to look in his eyes* Dark brown, don’t you think? Not as unusual as yours..
Hajime: Unusual? *chuckles* I like very dark eyes… But… if black it isn’t then dark brown would have to do. (thinks: okay hajime.. move away) have you ever smoked?
Hide: I’m glad they’ll -do-… *smiles* No… but I am getting quite accustomed to the smell (thinks: and the taste…)
Hajime: Sumanai… *chuckles* Perhaps I shall need to buy some cologne… *removes arm wrapped around her and lights up. hands slightly shaking.. take deep puffs* You should always try something once in your life… -always-…
Hide: Did I say I minded the smell? It … is very much part of your smell, in my mind. *notices his hands* Hajime, *says softly* I am not afraid to be close like this with you… know that… *looks at the cigarette* Once, I’ll try this. *smiles*
Hajime: That’s good neko… *takes her hand and kisses the back of it* But… *chuckles* It’s a -costly- habit.. (thinks: yeah but i’m not dead yet)
Hajime: But… it’s so worth it… (thinks: just like having you…)
Hide: Yes… we all have those costly things we enjoy. Next time I go back to Kyoto to see my brother… well, I shall have a time in the kimono shops. *laughs*
Hajime: Oh? (thinks: right the kimonos…) *sigh* What shall you say to your brother?
Hajime: He might ask you to -stay- there… I mean you don’t have relatives here…
Hide: No, no… he let me leave. It was the agreement between him, my mother and I, that I could live somewhere else, quietly. And I have friends here. He knows I’m happy here.. and would not ask me to leave that.
hajimenokizu: Good… (traces the lines on her face) Coz… I can’t let you go -just- yet…
Hide: Oh, I’m not going anywhere… *smiles softly*
Hajime: *Watches her… Deeply into her eyes… Wondering* Thanks…
Hide: *puts her hand on his cheek, not breaking the contact with his eyes*
Hajime: Hide… *his eyes soften… but they narrow in indecision..* (thinks: always try something once) *draws her near…* (try just once more) *touches her cheek, not closing his eyes before finally drawing himself to meet her lips*
Hide: *meets his lips, thinking, it’s enough to say that I’m not afraid… I must show him… * *her hand moves around to the back of his neck*
Hajime: *runs his hand along the arm that she encircled on his neck… dazed… too dazed… too lost… deepens the kiss… (thinks: don’t blow this ahou…)* I can’t stop.. Hide.. I love you.
Hide: I didn’t say you would have to stop, Hajime. *smiles, to kiss him again, parting her lips under his*
Hajime: She responds… And he feels his chest beating faster… (thinks: now… it’s the right time she’s not backing away) Nips lightly on her lips.. before going down on her neck… (thinks: it’s been so long) “Tell me if I hurt you”
Hide: *moves closer in his arms* No… not at all… *sighs at little at his lips on her neck*
Hajime: (thinks: We’re outside… But I can’t go in there.. Not yet) *Notices how is it that the best times they have together are in the afternoons* *tries to be soft, landing his hands on her waist.. feeling for her curves… his hands squeezing her sides unconsciously.. and his kisses to her neck became harder… and his teeth burying itself on her shoulder*
Hide: *turns her head to graze her lips against the skin at his neck, thinking: Hajime, trust me to know this… to want you again… for you to know that it’s okay to touch me again… kissing along his jaw, holding him close*
Hajime: *groans slightly at her lips on his skin…* (thinks: She drives me… insane…) *slowly lies her down on the blanket as his lips claimed her once again… his whole attention, making sure she did not shiver… he breaks the kiss and watches her face for a moment… before he let his left hand slightly and slowly part the the upper part of her kimono, making sure that she didn’t hesitate… preparing himself mentally to stop just in case.
Hide: *he’s… being careful., she thinks. To make sure that I want this…* *as he starts to open her kimono, she smiles and nods slightly, before raising her lips to kiss him again… kissing him, with that, trying to convey all that she felt with her actions… that it was what she wanted. To be near him again, to be with him*
Hajime: I see her smile… She knows what’s going to happen between us once again… Maybe she even understands… How did I find her? Why? Am I worthy? Of course not… But… I must stop thinking… Feeling her lips once again… She freely giving it… I respond back to her and kissing her before finally finding my hands fully exposing her front… I glide my lips over her breast… Soft and sweet… Just like back then… The first time.. she let me touch her…
SafetyGirl0: I gasp a little as his lips find my breast… I arch my back against him, and lightly rest my hands in his hair, to guide him, to show my desire for this to continue. He touches me so gently – and I feel my body responding to it. If he wishes it – I am his.
Hajime: Staying her hand… I guide her back down on the blanket… “Careful… We’re outside…” Although I want to hear her moan and say my name… She is still a single woman… and rumors… she must avoid that… I untie her obi, my hands tremor slightly from desiring her… Finally undone, I part her kimono now fully. my hands not wasting time to find the center of her. Gently pulling at her small bud… while i go back up and kiss her lips, gently stroking her hair.
Hide: I try not to cry out as his hands touch me – he should know by that evidence that I want him. Breathless, I nod… “we shall both be quiet, Hajime” I try to grin like I’m very clever, but my attention is rather diverted… One hand goes to the buttons on his shirt – suddenly I want very much to feel his skin against mine.
Hajime: She’s still able to answer me like that… I grin slightly… proud at her… Continuing stroking her… I let her unbutton my shirt… very glad that she seems to want this as much as I do… I stand back for a moment as she takes my jacket off… while I went ahead and take my shirt off… It’s a little cold I notice…. So I hold her against me…. her breast brushing against me and I cannot help but shiver a little… But I try to focus and continue petting her in the middle of her thighs… I want to enter her… but perhaps she is not ready… so I glide my tongue around her neck… “Hide… are you sure?”
Hide: There he is against me, skin to my skin… it is so delightful, so welcome… then he asks me … I take my hands to lift his head to mine, where we are eye to eye, and whispher, “yes, Hajime… I love you… I want this… ” and kiss him, softly, as I spead my legs apart further and move against his hand there… let us chase away the shadows together…
Hajime: It’s very obvious as she parts her legs… I know she wants this… but… she voices it out too.. And I feel slightly more courageous witht he woman I have wronged. I fumble for the belt of my pants…. My need completely taking over that self-control I had wanted to institute earlier… I had only wanted to ease her into this… Perhaps just touch her intimately.. but no…. My whole body is convulsing from the thought as I finally got myself out and position myself between her legs… Trying to do this slowly is… is about the hardest thing… But avoiding her will just be the death of me. So I ease into her as slow as I can…. feeling every inch of her… reveling in it… like I never have… I stare at her dark brown eyes… trying to talk silently to assure her that I have no intention ever again to hurt her…
Hide: I gasp, panting as he enters me… slowly… with such gentleness… like the first time we did this … it is fire but it is sweetness as well…. to be with him again – my hands glide down his back, as I start to move against him, meeting his eyes – his care plainly written on his face. If I could love him more… this man… “Hajime,” I hiss, closing my eyes, holding onto him tight.
Hajime: “Shhh… Not so loud…” I whisper as I move against her… Slowly… I must do this slowly… and yet in only a few moments… I find myself rushing… bucking against her… my whole body refusing to listen to my commands… I see a few beads of sweat on her forehead, so I wipe it away… Ugh… slower damn cop… slower! “Hide… wrap your legs around me.” I ask her inbetween breaths.
Hide: It’s getting to where I can only sense him and the reactions that run through my body… as he asks, my legs go around him, holding him close, pulling him further in me as we move together… together… I bury my face in the place where his neck and shoulder meet, biting him a bit roughly to keep from yelling out… Ah… little shudders of pleasure begin to make me shake, and move faster against him.
Hajime: Deeper… She shifts her legs and I find myself deeper in her… my sacs touching her bottom each time we meet… Damn it… Wrong choice! I had thought this would slow me down… but no.. faster my body said… faster in her… her muscles i could feel pulling and squeezing my length and the head touching the very end of her bossom. I pant a bit… From need to climax with her… I need this… No.. I need her… -always-… Trying to stay here quietly is almost impossible… to stay calm is almost impossible. then suddenly she bites… Surprised I turn back to look at her… “Are you hurting?” I stop moving, shaking a bit… I was so close.
Hide: He stops moving “No… no… ” I whispher, “you just told me to be quiet… I have to get it out -somehow-….” I pull myself against him… don’t stop this now… if I hurt him I will make it up to him later, now I need -this- from him… to be together, to have this together – Hajime – my body urges his on, don’t stop…
Hajime: “Oh… I did..” Blinking a few times, partly to control the pain in my groin and trying to digest what the hell she is saying, I pantfurther… “Alright..” I thrust in her once again, trying to catch my breath… She looks… Wonderful… and happy… I want to be complete with her… yes… this is what i want.. no not this.. her… I grab her shoulders and pull her up… lifting her from the blanket while i rocked against her… “Come hide… with me…” I say in between breaths… “now..”
Hide: I open my eyes as he pulls me up, as we hold each other close, breathing hard, I look him… the look on his face… this is my Hajime… I feel it starting from where we are joined together – the urgency overtakes me, shaking, my fingers digging into his back, all I can feel, all I can sense is the man I love, as I feel myself utterly lost to the explosive reactions
Hajime: I groan as my load finally spews into her…cradling her close… tightly pressing her against me… my desires has finally come to a completion and I can feel hers has too. Closing my eyes for a moment, I squeeze her harder… Not daring to speak for they’ll only come out in croaks and pants…
Hide: As it subsides, I can only hold onto him… my head resting on his shoulder, trying to catch my breath…. to express… right now what I feel with words… it’s impossible… all I can do is hold him…
Hajime: I lift her up slightly… taking her shoulder and putting her kimono back into place and handing her her obi. “Ummm we should be more careful.”
Hide: I smile, “probably… it was difficult to keep quiet…”
Hajime: I grin at her… while putting on my shirt… It’s been a while since… she hit the spot of what i was thinking.. “Good… Maybe next time…” Placing my finger on her lips.. “We’ll go out somewhere more secluded…”
Hide: Looking towards the -mark- I left on him, I nod. “Probably better for both of us, ne?” I laugh a little as i fix my kimono, and tie the obi. The blanket was a good thing to have had, otherwise I would be trying to repair yet another kimono…
Hajime: You were lucky today… I tried not to be rough…” I sit down on the blanket watching her dress. I shake my head… “Sorry about the soba… I thought I was hungry…”
Hide: “No, no, it is fine… one of these days we must try to get through a meal.” I laugh, as I slide the obi around so the bow is in the back. I lean over to touch his face and kiss him softly, before I tie my hair back. What a mess but what a way to get into a mess! I grin. And hope… that what has haunted us since that night has finally fled into the past.
Hajime: I chuckle a bit at -that-. She was absolutely right… I haven’t finished a meal normally and completely with her just yet… But maybe soon… “Then I suppose we shall have to keep trying.” I smirk at her after letting go of those lips… I watch her again… Gazing… She accepted me right? Of course… If she didn’t we wouldn’t have… yes that right… I pull her once more and just squeeze her before letting go. “Yagi Hide… I shall not call you neko anymore.”
Hide: “Oh really? What shall you call me then?” I smile, gathering the -attempts- at dinner back onto the tray.
Hajime: I like your name a bit too much to call you neko… And you’re not a cat…. you’re a little bit more wilder than that…” Grins…
Hide: I can only laugh at that… “wild?” I grin at him. “I guess we all have our -moments-. You seem to bring those out in me.”
Hajime: “Glad to hear that…” picks up the remaining things on the grass and blanket.. “Come… It would be bad if someone else saw you like -that-… You’ll have more visitors than usual.” *walks towards the door… and waits*
Hide: *follows him over* Now aren’t you glad you stayed? (thinks: I am … )
Hajime: I never wanted to leave Hide… *opens the door and guides her inside… moves slightly behind her and wait for her to enter first.
Hide: *enters, and says, quietly,* I didn’t want you to either.
Hajime: *smiles and steals a kiss.* I’ll be going… but.. as I’ve said I’m not leaving you -alone-. Jaa! *runs out as quickly as he came*
SafetyGirl0: *Watches him leave, smiling*